I have srtuggled my whole life with just horrific things that had accured from the age of 6-12.Being of which was being molested by my mom's brother,my uncle.It seemed after that everything went downhill for me.Picked the wrong guy's,who beat on me.Not ever really trusting anyone.Lot's of anger,rebellion,bad choices period.They say Bi-Polar is hereditary and I strongly believe that with the more I learn about my disease. I have seen so many bad things in my family growing up,I should of known I was doomed from the start.I was finally diagnosed about a year ago,and am trying my best to deal and do the right things,which is not always easy(therapy).I know the breaking point was when my marriage of 10 years ended with my husband cheating on me and destroying our family.I left him.Thought I was doing great for a year and then it all came crashing down. I met a really great guy who continued,to push me to just talk to someone.I thank God everyday he cared enough to "push" or I probely would of gave up a long time ago.I was ashamed at first,having a mental disorder,but now I am proud of myself for wanting to get the right help for me and my family.Don't be afraid,don't be in denial and it never hurts to try and make your life better no matter what the circumstance.