So, I'm new to the site ... and, well, new to bipolar. It seems to have hit me like a brick. At first, there was "The Great Depression" finding out the prognosis ... then relief set in. Not everyone thinks like this and there IS more to life. And now, I finally have an answer. Haha, there is no brown foam in my brain ... that, my friends, is exciting news. This, I can deal with.

My major problem right now is work. Forcing myself to go is like forcing an 11 year-old that is being picked on a school to go. (And I know all about that.) I have a great job, that I never really enjoyed. The benefits are great, the monotony is torturous, and the pay is wonderful. Problem is, you don't get paid if you don't show up. I am all out of 40 hours of sick leave and 100 hours of vacation and I've only had them for 4 months ... I have to wait until March for any more. I can't loose this job ... but I also CAN'T go to work. It seems physically impossible.

My doctor just put my on the abilify. It sounds like a magic drug. Too good to be true, in fact. So maybe I should just hang on and give it a chance. But in the mean time ... does anyone have any suggestions? Did anyone have the same problem and know how to over-come? Please tell me your secret! HELP!