My husband and I have been married for a little over 2 years. We met online and grew closer by chatting online, through the phone and eventually met. My husband was in the army at the time, so after serveral months of dating we decided we were going to get married and start a family. We were in love, so madly in love. It wasn't until I found out I was pregnant that he found out that he was bipolar, and was being medically discharged from the army. He started taking his meds because he had to. He didn't like the way they made him feel. One time he drank a beer with an ambien, and i found him in the kitchen with a broken plate talking to this place telling it he was going to get a med-vac for it. I was scared out of my mind, 19 pregnant with a nutcases baby, but I loved him. After that incident I had him talk to his therapist and military doctor and they changed his meds around and advised him not to drink. He was good on medication for a few months, then he discovered a few of his army buddies were smoking pot. He stopped taking his meds, started selling them to buy pot.. This is when I started noticing more and more mood swings with bigger blow ups and more anger. My husband has never hit me, and has always walked away from a situation when he's mad but.. the thought of him snapping is sitll there..

Basically why I am here is because I don't know what to do.. I try and talk to my husband about anything and he turns it around me like its my fault. If I ever have an idea, it sucks and a day or so later.. it's his idea and its amazing. He forgets that he calls me mean names and says mean things like " I am sick him(referring to our 20 month old son), I am sick of you and I am just sick of everything" When I went to talk to him about it when he was cooled down.. He swore up and down he never said it and asked if I needed to get my hearing checked. There has been many times where he's lied, and I have caught him and he blows up and find something I have done wrong to compare it. Is it the bipolar or is it the weed? I hear different things about pot and bipolar. I have read different things as well. The stories are hit or miss with people, sometimes it work and other times it makes things worse. I am to the point where I just want to back my son up and leave and not tell him where I went. I can't deal with the verbal abuse anymore.. but I love him so much. He wasn't always like this, he has his moments.I also doubt he will stop smoking pot because he has this new idea that he wants to become an activst for the state of florida so that he an legailize marjiuana.. Yet.. he doesn't have a job or a degree to support his wife and son.