Depression

MEMORY LOSS AND BIPOLAR DISORDER AFFECT ME!

Tracy Community Member June 13, 2008
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    Lately I have realized that I am forgetting things, especially conversations. Could my memory loss be attributed to my bipolar disorder or not? I am writing this post, because of an argument me and my husband had earlier. He said we discussed something, and I do not remember discussing the issue this week. It really upsets me to think we might have discussed it and I just do not remember it. I feel like an old woman suffering from a dementia related disease. How could this be. Could he be lying about it. This would be cruel to do to a person suffering from bipolar disorder and is having symptoms of depression this week. Could he be wrong and not wanting to admit it?


    I looked up some information on this memory loss and the link to bipolar disorder. This is what I found: However, when bipolar disorder goes untreated, there is a high risk of damage to brain cells and subsequent memory loss. Researchers are still trying to determine if this is true. In some cases, a person taking medication for hypomania may feel like he or she is experiencing memory loss because they felt more creative and sharper (common symptoms of hypomania) before taking medication. Mild depression interferes with memory as well.

    As for me, I really believe that there is a link between memory loss and bipolar disorder and depression. I have definitely felt depressed this week.

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52 Comments
  • liz
    liz
    Aug. 08, 2010

    I truly believe i am bipolar. I have severely bad short term memory loss. Mainly its when i hear things such as peoples names, directions, conversations, etc. I can't remember what i did two days ago or the previous weekend. I have horrible mood swings and they escalate when i drink caffeine drinks such as coffee especially. If my stress is really high and...

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    I truly believe i am bipolar. I have severely bad short term memory loss. Mainly its when i hear things such as peoples names, directions, conversations, etc. I can't remember what i did two days ago or the previous weekend. I have horrible mood swings and they escalate when i drink caffeine drinks such as coffee especially. If my stress is really high and i lose my temper (i have a very bad temper) I'll have amnesia afterwards. I won't remember why i got angry or what the general conversation was about or what i said. My longterm memory is ok and im generally ok with visual things but i can tell that its progressively getting worse as time goes on. I am 20 years old and i'm not sure if i should talk to a doctor and go on medication? My gf thinks that i should and unfortunately she is generally the one i lash out to when i lose my temper. I don't want to feel numb from all the medications. I just want something that stabilizes my mood and helps with the memory b/c that is going downhill very fast. Especially anything to do with math or anything that requires your short term memory.

    Any suggestions?

    • Shelly
      Aug. 08, 2010

      Liz,

       

      The only way to know for sure is to go to your physician, talk to them and get a proper diagnosis.

      Good Luck.

       

      Shelly

  • Anonymous
    Sportsnutim
    Mar. 03, 2010

    I have Bipolar also; bipolar I. My memory is horrible especially short-term. It drives me and my wife crazy. Not sure if it is my meds/bipolar. I am always forgetting things. Example I will lay something down after that it is gone. Another one, I will be looking for my wallet and all along it is in my hand: crazy. Taking tests, forget it I do terrible.

  • Anonymous
    Kristy
    Jan. 30, 2010

    I thought i was going crazy. I to have been having memory loss I hate it. I to believe it has to do with my bipolar disorder also. I for get things alot, or my brain says one thing but my mouth wont say it right. Or here is the big thing I get asked a question and I really think I answerd the person but i don't and I fight over it because I know I said...

    RHMLucky777

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    I thought i was going crazy. I to have been having memory loss I hate it. I to believe it has to do with my bipolar disorder also. I for get things alot, or my brain says one thing but my mouth wont say it right. Or here is the big thing I get asked a question and I really think I answerd the person but i don't and I fight over it because I know I said some thing..But I didn't, My kids and husband are getting use to asking me questions over and over, but if Im in public I feel like a stupid ass, I really get embarresed and feel like they think Im on drugs or just plain dumb...I hate It, Thank god my daughter is use to it, she is really good at finihing sentances for me so I don't feel stupid. I can't keep a job because It's getting worce wish there was a pill to make it all better.

  • Anonymous
    Anonymous
    Jan. 28, 2010

    I just found this page after searching bipolar and memory loss.  I have been good for about 2 years now with no relapses, but have always had a bad memory and just forget everything after a manic episode (which is probably for the best).

    But earlier this week I decided to make curtains and did the measuring - I discovered that I could no longer do basic...

    RHMLucky777

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    I just found this page after searching bipolar and memory loss.  I have been good for about 2 years now with no relapses, but have always had a bad memory and just forget everything after a manic episode (which is probably for the best).

    But earlier this week I decided to make curtains and did the measuring - I discovered that I could no longer do basic arithmatic.  I am horrified about this!  I am hoping it is the bipolar or meds, but to have a massive change like this so young (35) and so suddenly is very scary.  I have bought a Nintendo ds and am going to try the 'brain training' every day.  I am on the same meds as a previous poster who mentioned the B12, so will try that too.  But I would be very interested to find out about any research into bipolar memory loss outside of episodes (and deterioration).

    • Anonymous
      Kristy
      Jan. 30, 2010

      Scared! Me to. I've been dealing with this for 6 years, It sucks. Sometimes I feel like I'm the stupidest person in the world. I have a dagree in Nursing and can't find a job, this upsets me It's because I can't remember what I'm doing.. I hate it. and I'm so afraid if I do work I'll do something wrong or forget something and hurt someone...I've taken all types...

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      Scared! Me to. I've been dealing with this for 6 years, It sucks. Sometimes I feel like I'm the stupidest person in the world. I have a dagree in Nursing and can't find a job, this upsets me It's because I can't remember what I'm doing.. I hate it. and I'm so afraid if I do work I'll do something wrong or forget something and hurt someone...I've taken all types of meds also, It's not the meds I know it isn't. It just started happening over the past year, BUT it is getting worse. Now they are treating me for ADD great more pills, yippee.. Well if you have any Ideas let me know. I can't stand it I cook alot and the recipes are getting harder to read and do more and more.

    • Anonymous
      Anonymous
      Jan. 30, 2010

      Yeah, I am a Tecnical Writer and I am now realisticc that I won't be able ot work in my field eventually, if the memory problem escalates.  Because it has gotten worse over time and much quicker now, I think I will have to downgrade my profession to something less technical.  Currently, i am only able to work part-time, because stress triggers my...

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      Yeah, I am a Tecnical Writer and I am now realisticc that I won't be able ot work in my field eventually, if the memory problem escalates.  Because it has gotten worse over time and much quicker now, I think I will have to downgrade my profession to something less technical.  Currently, i am only able to work part-time, because stress triggers my bipolar and I can't handle full-time (which I know from work disasters!).  Maybe working part-time will help if you can afford it or get some kind of illness subsidy - we don't have that where I live though.  There is some inconclusion about whether the bipolar OR the drugs cause the memory and confusion problems, but it doesn't really matter which it is - even though it's terrible, I still think it's better to be suffering from memory problems on medication than be at great risk from untreated bipolar.  I have just bought myself a Nintendo DS to do the memory and brain games to try and keep it from getting worse.  I will let you guys know how it goes.  All I can think of is that doing crosswords and learning languages etc (basically keeping your brain going) is a good preventative for Alzheimers and dementia - maybe that can slow down this problem for us.  If anyone discovers any studies going on related to bipolar and memory loss, I would like to know about it.  Best wishes everyone.

  • BiPoPastor
    Sep. 21, 2009

    I was diagnosed nearly 17 years ago, and I too suffer from short-term memory loss. Someone can tell me something, and within 1 minute I couldn't tell you what they said. My situation is getting  worse; it's like I am showing early signs of dementia. To make matters even worse, my wife had a massive stroke in March and, although she has recovered a great...

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    I was diagnosed nearly 17 years ago, and I too suffer from short-term memory loss. Someone can tell me something, and within 1 minute I couldn't tell you what they said. My situation is getting  worse; it's like I am showing early signs of dementia. To make matters even worse, my wife had a massive stroke in March and, although she has recovered a great deal, she still has episodes of mood changes where her anger or sadness are abrupt and not predictable.

     

    My lack of memory is causing her a great deal of stress. When she is herself, she is sad because she wants to take care of me, and I pray that happens, because at this rate I sure will need it.

     

     I am currently on Lithium, Seroquel, Effexor, Bupropion and Adderall. Over the years I have taken nearly every pill available, but I really don't think it is the meds; my pDoc  and therapist agree. I really think it is the "nature of the beast", and what a beast it is. This is why it iritates me so much that people (media) label anyone who acts oddly as "bipolar". Bipolar Disorder is not an incident; it is a lifetime of sorrow, excitability, compassion, hatred, anger and peace, with a little bit of "normal" thrown in, just to be reminded of what our lives should be like.

     

    Peace to all of my brothers and sisters who suffer from the same illness differently.

    • Anonymous
      Twilight
      Sep. 21, 2009

      I know what you mean I have been dealing with this as you can say disease for many years and have had a bad memory ever since I can remember so I dont think it has anything to do with the meds I think it is directly linked to the disease.

      Another thing I agree with you on is the miss diagnonsis of this disease it seems that lately people with mild depression...

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      I know what you mean I have been dealing with this as you can say disease for many years and have had a bad memory ever since I can remember so I dont think it has anything to do with the meds I think it is directly linked to the disease.

      Another thing I agree with you on is the miss diagnonsis of this disease it seems that lately people with mild depression are being diagnosed with Bipolar and it isnt right. Being depressed about something you did and having biploar are two different things. We dont just suffer from depression we have so many mood swings and outbursts that half the time we dont know what is going on in our minds or what to do about it. The reason I know it is becoming just a catch diagnosis to get people in and out quick is my roomate was diagnosed a few months ago and she never has a manic episode or any of the syptoms, let alone she has never taken the meds they gave her. I am sorry but being Bilpolar I know if you go off your meds you are going to crack and no good will come from it, so if she is bipolar I am the queen of england and I want my thrown back..

      To the point Doctors need to stop doing a quick fix to a problem and take the time to diagnose it right so that maybe people will one day understand the seriousness of what we go through and how it affects our daily lives. I mean having to set alarms in your phone to remind you to do something that is a common everday task is not normal, blowing up at some one you love for no reason at all because you are just out of control is not normal and yet instead of treating this as what it is they just tell every tom dick and harry that is depressed about something that they are Bipolar. I know people who go to shrinks that have been diagnosed Bipolar who admitt they are not but that they just like how they feel when they take the meds, come on now can we say miss diagnosed.

       

    • Anonymous
      Anonymous
      Sep. 22, 2009

      AMEN!

  • Anonymous
    jamie
    Jul. 13, 2009

    Hello- my name is a Jamie and I am 33 years old suffering with Manic depressive dis order (BI-polar). And I too have been experienceing this alot I was dignosed Whith this at the age of 17 and been fighting it ever since!! And now trying to find help through links. I am suffering very harshly through my job and I too wonder if what they're saying is something...

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    Hello- my name is a Jamie and I am 33 years old suffering with Manic depressive dis order (BI-polar). And I too have been experienceing this alot I was dignosed Whith this at the age of 17 and been fighting it ever since!! And now trying to find help through links. I am suffering very harshly through my job and I too wonder if what they're saying is something that they messed up on and know that they can blame it on me or if it really is infact my own problem, se I let them know that I am a "slow learner" but now I dont know if I am being taken advantage of. I also have the problem with holding a conversation at work or even at home and being able to "keep a flow" going within it and trying to explain my self on what I may have done.... Is very hard!!! So I am replying to you in ned of so kind of fellowship who may have the same problems as I and to anyone ealse who is going through this.                      

    • Anonymous
      Anonymous
      Aug. 16, 2009

      O.K. OK.

      LISTEN UP!

       

      I'm taking B-12. and alot of it. (at least double the dose.) There are some that are sublingual too, and taste sweet.

       

      My sister is a big advocate of vitamins, and w/ two highly specialized Masters degrees, recomended this for memory loss. It has made a big difference!

       

      I take lamactil, lithium, and seroquel, and fairly...

      RHMLucky777

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      O.K. OK.

      LISTEN UP!

       

      I'm taking B-12. and alot of it. (at least double the dose.) There are some that are sublingual too, and taste sweet.

       

      My sister is a big advocate of vitamins, and w/ two highly specialized Masters degrees, recomended this for memory loss. It has made a big difference!

       

      I take lamactil, lithium, and seroquel, and fairly high doses. Try it!

  • Anonymous
    katie
    Apr. 15, 2009

    I am only 23, and was diagnosed about 5 years ago, during college.  I retained the information from the program I was in at the time, so it must have been some time after that that this started.  I have for (we'll guess since I can't remember... go figure) about four years been losing long term memories (I can't remember doing most things...

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    I am only 23, and was diagnosed about 5 years ago, during college.  I retained the information from the program I was in at the time, so it must have been some time after that that this started.  I have for (we'll guess since I can't remember... go figure) about four years been losing long term memories (I can't remember doing most things when I was a teen that I should.. and everything preteen and before is gone except for random snipets.. mostly triggered by smell, or a random table cloth that looks like something from my childhood..) and now am losing my short term memory. I can't remember the face of someone I've known for a year.  Or I see someone I haven't seen in a couple months, and I remember aspects of their face, but I can't for the life of me remember their name or where I know them from. I can't retain any information from work (I'm scared someone will realize one day I have no idea what I'm doing, and fire me!)  I have to write a note to bring my lunch to work.  I can't remember to feed my cat.  All the little things are missing..I remember if someone yelled at me, but I can't remember what about. On top of this, my dreams when I'm manic seem more realistic than real life.  I have thought something really happened, and several weeks later I remember something else about the situation that makes me realize I've been pissed off at a friend for a dream.  I honestly feel like I'm going a bit loopy and a bit senial.  I have been off medication for over two years now, so if this is a common thread amongst bipolar enjoyers, then it perhaps has nothing to do with medication, and more with brain misfires.  Either way, I'm very glad to see that I'm not alone (not that I'm happy other people are suffering through feeling like they're losing it.)

    • Anonymous
      Anonymous
      May. 06, 2009

      It is an issue of executive function.  Look it up...it will explain so much...

      (mother of a BP teenager and learning consultant)

  • Anonymous
    bobosbigtop
    Feb. 14, 2009

    I have noticed memory problems. allways forgetting to leave things, or to even take my pills. I dont even remember if I had taken them or not. I purchased a little pad to write things in and I loose them. I also have noticed that while talking I loose my way on concentration. It causes me to stop talking or to hesitate and I feel like a moron. I was allways...

    RHMLucky777

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    I have noticed memory problems. allways forgetting to leave things, or to even take my pills. I dont even remember if I had taken them or not. I purchased a little pad to write things in and I loose them. I also have noticed that while talking I loose my way on concentration. It causes me to stop talking or to hesitate and I feel like a moron. I was allways sharp could do many things at one time and control them all. or so I thought. But now I cant even order food from a drive up window without getting confused and having a hard time relaying my order. ???? I was wondering if it might be my medication. depacote/ wellbutrin/ seroquel

    • angels777
      Jul. 06, 2009

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because...

      RHMLucky777

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      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because the pills don't work fast.

      My head is in a constant fog -and I'm constantly making excuses for my self to my spouse, and I end up telling him--who's got memory loss you or me.........? It is sooo frustrating,-I feel like an Althzeimers patient, (bless them)-I too used to be so quick with my replies, no more--I think it's the meds or we all wouldn't feel this way.

      Coffee, helps me alot-and there is a med for narcolepsy, to keep me awake if I start falling asleep-ONLY as needed, what's happened to us?

      The minute I wake-it's the 1st thing on my mind. It's hell.

    • angels777
      Jul. 06, 2009

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because...

      RHMLucky777

      Read More

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because the pills don't work fast.

      My head is in a constant fog -and I'm constantly making excuses for my self to my spouse, and I end up telling him--who's got memory loss you or me.........? It is sooo frustrating,-I feel like an Althzeimers patient, (bless them)-I too used to be so quick with my replies, no more--I think it's the meds or we all wouldn't feel this way.

      Coffee, helps me alot-and there is a med for narcolepsy, to keep me awake if I start falling asleep-ONLY as needed, what's happened to us?

      The minute I wake-it's the 1st thing on my mind. It's hell.

    • angels777
      Jul. 06, 2009

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because...

      RHMLucky777

      Read More

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because the pills don't work fast.

      My head is in a constant fog -and I'm constantly making excuses for my self to my spouse, and I end up telling him--who's got memory loss you or me.........? It is sooo frustrating,-I feel like an Althzeimers patient, (bless them)-I too used to be so quick with my replies, no more--I think it's the meds or we all wouldn't feel this way.

      Coffee, helps me alot-and there is a med for narcolepsy, to keep me awake if I start falling asleep-ONLY as needed, what's happened to us?

      The minute I wake-it's the 1st thing on my mind. It's hell.

    • angels777
      Jul. 06, 2009

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because...

      RHMLucky777

      Read More

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because the pills don't work fast.

      My head is in a constant fog -and I'm constantly making excuses for my self to my spouse, and I end up telling him--who's got memory loss you or me.........? It is sooo frustrating,-I feel like an Althzeimers patient, (bless them)-I too used to be so quick with my replies, no more--I think it's the meds or we all wouldn't feel this way.

      Coffee, helps me alot-and there is a med for narcolepsy, to keep me awake if I start falling asleep-ONLY as needed, what's happened to us?

      The minute I wake-it's the 1st thing on my mind. It's hell.

    • angels777
      Jul. 06, 2009

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because...

      RHMLucky777

      Read More

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because the pills don't work fast.

      My head is in a constant fog -and I'm constantly making excuses for my self to my spouse, and I end up telling him--who's got memory loss you or me.........? It is sooo frustrating,-I feel like an Althzeimers patient, (bless them)-I too used to be so quick with my replies, no more--I think it's the meds or we all wouldn't feel this way.

      Coffee, helps me alot-and there is a med for narcolepsy, to keep me awake if I start falling asleep-ONLY as needed, what's happened to us?

      The minute I wake-it's the 1st thing on my mind. It's hell.

    • angels777
      Jul. 06, 2009

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because...

      RHMLucky777

      Read More

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because the pills don't work fast.

      My head is in a constant fog -and I'm constantly making excuses for my self to my spouse, and I end up telling him--who's got memory loss you or me.........? It is sooo frustrating,-I feel like an Althzeimers patient, (bless them)-I too used to be so quick with my replies, no more--I think it's the meds or we all wouldn't feel this way.

      Coffee, helps me alot-and there is a med for narcolepsy, to keep me awake if I start falling asleep-ONLY as needed, what's happened to us?

      The minute I wake-it's the 1st thing on my mind. It's hell.

    • angels777
      Jul. 06, 2009

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because...

      RHMLucky777

      Read More

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because the pills don't work fast.

      My head is in a constant fog -and I'm constantly making excuses for my self to my spouse, and I end up telling him--who's got memory loss you or me.........? It is sooo frustrating,-I feel like an Althzeimers patient, (bless them)-I too used to be so quick with my replies, no more--I think it's the meds or we all wouldn't feel this way.

      Coffee, helps me alot-and there is a med for narcolepsy, to keep me awake if I start falling asleep-ONLY as needed, what's happened to us?

      The minute I wake-it's the 1st thing on my mind. It's hell.

    • angels777
      Jul. 06, 2009

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because...

      RHMLucky777

      Read More

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because the pills don't work fast.

      My head is in a constant fog -and I'm constantly making excuses for my self to my spouse, and I end up telling him--who's got memory loss you or me.........? It is sooo frustrating,-I feel like an Althzeimers patient, (bless them)-I too used to be so quick with my replies, no more--I think it's the meds or we all wouldn't feel this way.

      Coffee, helps me alot-and there is a med for narcolepsy, to keep me awake if I start falling asleep-ONLY as needed, what's happened to us?

      The minute I wake-it's the 1st thing on my mind. It's hell.

    • angels777
      Jul. 06, 2009

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because...

      RHMLucky777

      Read More

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because the pills don't work fast.

      My head is in a constant fog -and I'm constantly making excuses for my self to my spouse, and I end up telling him--who's got memory loss you or me.........? It is sooo frustrating,-I feel like an Althzeimers patient, (bless them)-I too used to be so quick with my replies, no more--I think it's the meds or we all wouldn't feel this way.

      Coffee, helps me alot-and there is a med for narcolepsy, to keep me awake if I start falling asleep-ONLY as needed, what's happened to us?

      The minute I wake-it's the 1st thing on my mind. It's hell.

    • angels777
      Jul. 06, 2009

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because...

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      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because the pills don't work fast.

      My head is in a constant fog -and I'm constantly making excuses for my self to my spouse, and I end up telling him--who's got memory loss you or me.........? It is sooo frustrating,-I feel like an Althzeimers patient, (bless them)-I too used to be so quick with my replies, no more--I think it's the meds or we all wouldn't feel this way.

      Coffee, helps me alot-and there is a med for narcolepsy, to keep me awake if I start falling asleep-ONLY as needed, what's happened to us?

      The minute I wake-it's the 1st thing on my mind. It's hell.

    • angels777
      Jul. 06, 2009

      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because...

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      I have the exact problem almost to a tee. I forget from moment,to moment---- My pills -I have found my own way-in the morning if my morn pills aren't in the morn bottle-

      i force my self to stop............and get them -before I do any thing else-----then refill and put them away for the next day ---if I forget at the later dose, I pay with the mania, because the pills don't work fast.

      My head is in a constant fog -and I'm constantly making excuses for my self to my spouse, and I end up telling him--who's got memory loss you or me.........? It is sooo frustrating,-I feel like an Althzeimers patient, (bless them)-I too used to be so quick with my replies, no more--I think it's the meds or we all wouldn't feel this way.

      Coffee, helps me alot-and there is a med for narcolepsy, to keep me awake if I start falling asleep-ONLY as needed, what's happened to us?

      The minute I wake-it's the 1st thing on my mind. It's hell.

    • Anonymous
      Anonymous
      Jul. 08, 2009

      thanks for the reply. I have been trying to get into a neurolgist for a while. I have no idea what he has in mind, if anything. possibly some suggestions. My psychologist recommended working with your memory. taking little word and number challenges. I am giving it a go. thanks again

      have a good evening

       

    • Anonymous
      Hillery
      Nov. 04, 2009

      Do not fell like you are alone. I am a college student right now, and my memory loss is so bad that I can not relay what I just read in my text books. I feel like the village idiot because I can't remeber things. I think that the combination of being bipolar and the medications (lithium,boproin,zyprexa) have permenetly created a learning disorder in me head....

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      Do not fell like you are alone. I am a college student right now, and my memory loss is so bad that I can not relay what I just read in my text books. I feel like the village idiot because I can't remeber things. I think that the combination of being bipolar and the medications (lithium,boproin,zyprexa) have permenetly created a learning disorder in me head. God bless you all...I know what you are going through!

       

      Hillery

  • Anonymous
    Tommy Shelton
    Jun. 29, 2008

    I recently got out of the hospital for a mental and nervous breakdown. My wife had all but left me, I couldn,t remember nothing but bits and pieces of the last year and a half. I had obviously been very abusive to her(not physical) with the things that I had said, I don't remember any of it and it tears my heart out and makes me less of a man any more, at about...

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    I recently got out of the hospital for a mental and nervous breakdown. My wife had all but left me, I couldn,t remember nothing but bits and pieces of the last year and a half. I had obviously been very abusive to her(not physical) with the things that I had said, I don't remember any of it and it tears my heart out and makes me less of a man any more, at about the same time I flipped out on one of my stepdaughters and don't remember what I said to her either. This hurts so bad that I can't start to describe it, to know that I hurt the woman that I vowed I'd never hurt just love for the rest of our days here. So yeah I know exactly how all of us feel and my heart goes out to you. All of this she is still here with me fighting this right beside me, I wish I was that strong! I wish I had the answer or the cure for all of us but i don't and that hurts too. As for today I'm still here, still fighting for a normal life with my family, friends and all of you guys that suffer just as I. And yes my doctor said that memory loss is part of the biploar/manic, we just can't figure out the triggers yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    • Anonymous
      Goldfish memory
      Oct. 23, 2008

      Oh my goodness. I feel for you. I thought I was having troubles with bad memory and how it affects my family but all I'm thinking about right now is your struggles. I wish you all the luck in the world and hope God helps you and your family stay strong.

       

      As for my own troubles... I started having noticeable short term memory loss around 20 yrs old. I'm...

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      Oh my goodness. I feel for you. I thought I was having troubles with bad memory and how it affects my family but all I'm thinking about right now is your struggles. I wish you all the luck in the world and hope God helps you and your family stay strong.

       

      As for my own troubles... I started having noticeable short term memory loss around 20 yrs old. I'm now 24 and have a 16 month daughter (i know pregnancy affects memory) and my memory has become absolutely TERRIBLE. I was on my own with my daughter for 5 months and the stress seemed almost unbearable. I basically swung between miserable and monster several times a day, every day. Now I am happily back with my husband but I am still having pretty heavy mood swings.

       

      What I'm getting at is... does it sound bipolar or just a stressed out hypocondriac? I'm embarrassed to talk to a doctor about it without more knowledge.

    • Anonymous
      Goldfish memory
      Oct. 30, 2008

      I've done a lot more research now and I am definately going to talk to a health proffessional, although, I no longer think its BP, I think I'm A.D.D. Many of the symptoms are similar.

       

      Thanks anyway and I wish you all the best!

  • Anonymous
    June Brown
    Jun. 26, 2008

    I have always had a bad memory.  It seems to be a family trait.  I have always, always:

    * - Thought I did things I didn't do (I just thought about doing them).  Things like thinking I'd mailed a stack of bills, then finding them three months later, sealed & stamped but never actually mailed.

    * - Just plain forgotten to do things, sometimes...

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    I have always had a bad memory.  It seems to be a family trait.  I have always, always:

    * - Thought I did things I didn't do (I just thought about doing them).  Things like thinking I'd mailed a stack of bills, then finding them three months later, sealed & stamped but never actually mailed.

    * - Just plain forgotten to do things, sometimes very important things, like taking the trash out, feeding the fish, brushing my hair, and taking my medication.

    * - Had trouble keeping track of the date and/or day of the week.

     

    However, until very recently, I haven't had too much trouble remembering things I did.  Actual things I actually did, you understand?  Just this last week, I did the following things that I don't remember at all:

    * - Changed the channel on the cable box (I know, doesn't sound like much, but I really do always keep the cable box on the same channel).

    * - Ate the last of the oatmeal.  And didn't even throw out the empty box.

    * - Vacuumed an entire room.  I have the proof of doing it, but not the memory.

    * - Called someone I never intended to call, after midnight, and left a 4-minute message.  The person called me back, and my phone shows the call, but I don't remember making it.  And it definitely wasn't a pocket call or anything like that, as I left an actual message with my name and number (although the message didn't make much sense, according to him).

     

    The first three are all things that don't really surprise me.  I mean, it surprises and scares me that I can't remember doing them, but they aren't entirely out-of-character for me (while the channel was changed, it was changed to another channel I like; I really like eating oatmeal; and the room needed vacuuming).

     

    But the last one really terrifies me, because I NEVER intended to call that person, ever, ever.  So the fact that I called him at all, much less after midnight, is completely out-of-character for me.  And then, to not remember it on top of that... it's just too much.  

  • antique roses
    Jun. 21, 2008

    I, too have become alarmed at what i think is varying degrees of total memory loss, suddenly, and without warning. I have not yet come to conclusions about what is causing this. It might be: 

    -the meds,

    -or strangely, suddenly my awareness of all that is happening is more grounded in reality  -before lots of stuff just sped past on its manic way,

    ...
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    I, too have become alarmed at what i think is varying degrees of total memory loss, suddenly, and without warning. I have not yet come to conclusions about what is causing this. It might be: 

    -the meds,

    -or strangely, suddenly my awareness of all that is happening is more grounded in reality  -before lots of stuff just sped past on its manic way,

    -or depression ruled my mind and again I just wasnt conscious of certain things because I was so deep into whatever mood was ruling  me and every thing in my world at the time

    -stress causes it, such as having to be somewhere and finding that I am driving the wrong way to my destination after about 15 min in the car...

    -selective memory , if I was not putting my attention on something,I just dont remember whole parts of a conversation

    - writing birthday or thankyou cards, adressing them, but not stamping and mailing them(I recently discovered a stash of these, and am ashamed to admit they were years we are talking here)

    working out in the garden and then not having any recollection of where i planted something only a week ago

    -completely believing I had done something when I had only evidently, thought of doing it

    I am somewhat relieved that others experience the same memory issues, and I dont believe in my case that its altzheimers...

    -lets blame it on the bipolar, shall we?

    • Anonymous
      Anonymous
      Jul. 20, 2008

      For me we over shot the amount of Lamictal and my cognitive was awlful. But I was willing to suffer the memory problems so

      long as I wasn't depressed. Finally, I am backing down on it slowly, because I was really brain-dead. WE're upping the seroquel and hopefully it will keep me o.k.

      It's all a give and take. I am thankful for these med stabilizers. 29 years...

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      For me we over shot the amount of Lamictal and my cognitive was awlful. But I was willing to suffer the memory problems so

      long as I wasn't depressed. Finally, I am backing down on it slowly, because I was really brain-dead. WE're upping the seroquel and hopefully it will keep me o.k.

      It's all a give and take. I am thankful for these med stabilizers. 29 years ago the only option I had was elavil and lithium. Now I take only mood stabilizers.

       

    • angels777
      Aug. 16, 2009

      different meds work for dif people-I too am on Lamictal, and a large dose of nerontin-

      My current stress level is way up there, My memory is so bad-I leave the water running,forget to pick up for my self-I am sick with worry--even when i'm typing I'm halting and mispelling words---help!!

  • Jalaine
    Jun. 15, 2008

    See, I couldn't even remember posting that comment so I did twice!! Laughing

     

    J/k, I got some kind of error message after I hit post comment and I so I wasn't sure if it would post or not. So I hit it again! Sorry!!!

  • Jalaine
    Jun. 15, 2008

    As I can't say that I am happy to hear that others are completely forgetting important things in their lives, but it does make me feel like I am not alone. I am soooo bad with remembering things, things that are so trivial and things that are also very important. I have to say to people who I am talking to that my short term memory is shot. I literally can't...

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    As I can't say that I am happy to hear that others are completely forgetting important things in their lives, but it does make me feel like I am not alone. I am soooo bad with remembering things, things that are so trivial and things that are also very important. I have to say to people who I am talking to that my short term memory is shot. I literally can't remember most of what I did the day before. And that's what it is like everyday for me now. If a neighbor comes up to me and just tries to be nice and asks what we did over the weekend, I just stand there, staring, trying for the life of me to remember just one thing that I did. It is almost like the days before are some sort of a dream. They are hazy and I remember bits and pieces here and there, but over time, I completely forget. I have to write everything down in my planner of what I did that day so now when I need to remember, I go get my planner and look. Embarassed

     

  • Jalaine
    Jun. 15, 2008

    As I can't say that I am happy to hear that others are completely forgetting important things in their lives, but it does make me feel like I am not alone. I am soooo bad with remembering things, things that are so trivial and things that are also very important. I have to say to people who I am talking to that my short term memory is shot. I literally can't...

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    As I can't say that I am happy to hear that others are completely forgetting important things in their lives, but it does make me feel like I am not alone. I am soooo bad with remembering things, things that are so trivial and things that are also very important. I have to say to people who I am talking to that my short term memory is shot. I literally can't remember most of what I did the day before. And that's what it is like everyday for me now. If a neighbor comes up to me and just tries to be nice and asks what we did over the weekend, I just stand there, staring, trying for the life of me to remember just one thing that I did. It is almost like the days before are some sort of a dream. They are hazy and I remember bits and pieces here and there, but over time, I completely forget. I have to write everything down in my planner of what I did that day so now when I need to remember, I go get my planner and look. Embarassed

     

  • Tracy
    Jun. 13, 2008

    It just dawned on me what you said about childhood abuse. I was abused as a child. I have very little memories of childhood and this has always haunted me to why? My gosh, we have something in common! I hope to get to know you better!Smile

    • freeda
      Jun. 13, 2008

      From what I understand, it's not uncommon for victims of child abuse to suppress memories.  I wasn't abused -- nothing beyond your garden variety "belt to the butt" every now and then.  But my therapists were always *convinced* there was something more.  I blame the bipolar, not my parents!

    • Anonymous
      Sonia
      Jan. 25, 2010

      Yeah my therapists always blaming my parents-I know they were great so it just me:(

  • birdbreather
    Jun. 13, 2008

     

    I literally just got into a fight with my wife over a conversation that we supposedly had, that I have no memory of. Just the other day I went to fill up my gas tank and pre-paid the clerk inside. By the time I got to my car I had completely forgotten what I had just paid for and drove away without filling the tank. Halfway home I realized my car had...

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    I literally just got into a fight with my wife over a conversation that we supposedly had, that I have no memory of. Just the other day I went to fill up my gas tank and pre-paid the clerk inside. By the time I got to my car I had completely forgotten what I had just paid for and drove away without filling the tank. Halfway home I realized my car had no gas and it occured to me that I completely overlooked actually putting the gas in the tank. I have felt terrible about it, what a waste of money. I have no idea if this is from Bipolar, or the meds, or just me being a complete moron. But I have noticed that I forget alot of things lately that I didn't used to.

    • Tracy
      Jun. 13, 2008

      Guys, I think we have found something. Memory loss is something that may affect more bipolars than we think. I am glad to hear that I am not the only one! Hope to hear from you soon! Take care of yourself.

    • Anonymous
      Jamie
      Jul. 13, 2009

      I am sooo glad to have found you all as well I work for a vets office as a technicition and I just keep on getting demoted to lessor and lessor positions and had to find a link for help this is something I have wanted to do all my life and now I feel like I am about to loose my job all over my sickness!!! What Iam I going to do this is very scary for me...

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      I am sooo glad to have found you all as well I work for a vets office as a technicition and I just keep on getting demoted to lessor and lessor positions and had to find a link for help this is something I have wanted to do all my life and now I feel like I am about to loose my job all over my sickness!!! What Iam I going to do this is very scary for me and now I know a lot of people!! I want so bad to find something to help it has anyone found anything for this? Currently started seroquelXR cannot say yet if it is gonna work I am soooo scraed you guys!!!! Please help me Yes I came from a back ground of abouse depression and being dyslexic dontknow if that has anything to do with it eaither just dont know anything!!! Please Help!!!!

    • angels777
      Aug. 16, 2009

      I have such severe mem loss lately,I have to stop-before I do any thing and think, it happens all day --this is nuts, I hate it! There doesn't seem to be an answer I have found, just people that are having the same problem...I even search for words when speaking.

    • Cin
      Cin
      Feb. 18, 2010

      Jamie, Oh my Lord, are you okay?? Lord knows I understand you. I managed to actually graduate UCLA, and then gradually job after job, demotion, after demotion became a humilated hair sweeper at a hair salon, and got fired on my birthday by a "friend" I grew up with. Even that did not work. Talk about humiliation. Describing this feeling to anyone who does...

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      Jamie, Oh my Lord, are you okay?? Lord knows I understand you. I managed to actually graduate UCLA, and then gradually job after job, demotion, after demotion became a humilated hair sweeper at a hair salon, and got fired on my birthday by a "friend" I grew up with. Even that did not work. Talk about humiliation. Describing this feeling to anyone who does not understand is beyond inexplicable. I hope you are okay now. I am really interested in talking to you. I am taking on a small research project to help people like us, and I am trying to get into yoga. Have you found some work???  God Bless You--Cin

    • Anonymous
      Jamie
      Jul. 13, 2009

      I am sooo glad to have found you all as well I work for a vets office as a technicition and I just keep on getting demoted to lessor and lessor positions and had to find a link for help this is something I have wanted to do all my life and now I feel like I am about to loose my job all over my sickness!!! What Iam I going to do this is very scary for me...

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      I am sooo glad to have found you all as well I work for a vets office as a technicition and I just keep on getting demoted to lessor and lessor positions and had to find a link for help this is something I have wanted to do all my life and now I feel like I am about to loose my job all over my sickness!!! What Iam I going to do this is very scary for me and now I know a lot of people!! I want so bad to find something to help it has anyone found anything for this? Currently started seroquelXR cannot say yet if it is gonna work I am soooo scraed you guys!!!! Please help me Yes I came from a back ground of abouse depression and being dyslexic dontknow if that has anything to do with it eaither just dont know anything!!! Please Help!!!!

    • Anonymous
      John Whipple
      Feb. 14, 2009

      My short-term memory stinks; I have always had trouble with it.  My long-term memory has always been good.  I was diagnosed with BP several years ago.  I am on all sorts of meds, including Lamictal.  I really believe BP does effect one's memory.

  • freeda
    Jun. 13, 2008

    My memory has always been like swiss cheese.  My former therapists always thought I must be repressing some horrible childhood abuse, but there wasn't any...  I just only have a half dozen memories of my childhood.  Same for my daughter's childhood -- I can't really remember her being other than the way she is now.  The pictures are cute,...

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    My memory has always been like swiss cheese.  My former therapists always thought I must be repressing some horrible childhood abuse, but there wasn't any...  I just only have a half dozen memories of my childhood.  Same for my daughter's childhood -- I can't really remember her being other than the way she is now.  The pictures are cute, but I don't get that tangible memory that you can "feel", you know?

     

    I read something similar about untreated bipolar leading to brain damage, and that medication can halt or reverse it.  I look forward to a sharper memory.  I'm only 32.  Way too young for this.

    • Tracy
      Jun. 13, 2008

      Freda, I am not sure my comment posted.. Going to post this again.. sorry. Well, when I read your comment, it hit me hard. I was abused as a child. I have very and I mean very little childhood memories. It has haunted me for a life time. I think we have something in common. Hope to get to know you better.Wink

    • Anonymous
      Anonymous
      Dec. 25, 2009

      I have times where my memory is better than others. It's Christmas day and I forgot some the presents I had bought. Thank God my family is understanding. If my 16 year old daughter had not asked I wouldn't of remembered the 2 presents for her and her sister.

      In my work I have to scan things.. I can scan something and then 2 minutes later not remember if I did...

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      I have times where my memory is better than others. It's Christmas day and I forgot some the presents I had bought. Thank God my family is understanding. If my 16 year old daughter had not asked I wouldn't of remembered the 2 presents for her and her sister.

      In my work I have to scan things.. I can scan something and then 2 minutes later not remember if I did or didn't..

      Not good.

       

    • lia
      lia
      Jan. 17, 2011

      Hi, I was so afraid after telling my husband that I was driving and suddenly didn't know where I was at. He said it was normal, but I know it is not. I never thought that my bipolar disorder could be a cause of this. I have been forgeting things lately but not to this extreme. When I realized I was lost, I thought of calling the police cus I really didn't know...

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      Hi, I was so afraid after telling my husband that I was driving and suddenly didn't know where I was at. He said it was normal, but I know it is not. I never thought that my bipolar disorder could be a cause of this. I have been forgeting things lately but not to this extreme. When I realized I was lost, I thought of calling the police cus I really didn't know where I was at. After pulling the car to the side, I started to breath profoundly and began to pray, I was very scarred. I began to count and told myself that If I can count, then I'm o.k. I then felt okay to drive to the nearest intersection where I did see a familiar street name. I followed it and it led me to a known major street and eventually made it home. I'm afraid and don't if It is safe for me to drive? I know I need to get back and forth to work but am afraid of going blank in the middle of driving and eventually causing an accident. I don't know what to do?