I'm so tired of being depressed. I just can't cope anymore. I can't get the meds I need. Insurance doesn't cover them and I would have to be a millionaire to be able to pay for them. I've applied for help with no answers. I need the meds now! I'm so tired of crying and hating myself. I just want to find a way out.


It seems like you can't take anymore, that there is no use in going on. There is, for yourself. You are important.
Talk to your kids and see if you can mend fences with them. You may be able to talk it out. Do your kids have information on your bi polar? Have you ever tried to sit down and talk to them about what you are going through? These seem like alot of questions, but they are valid questions. As long as you are doing everything you can think of to fix things, whether or not they want to fix their relationship with you is there choice.
I understand the medicine situation also. I have no insurance myself. I am lucky enough to have a great mental health system in my county where I live. They help me get my medicine through the Precription program. I also see their doctors and therapists. I really like it there. I have spent 80% of the time going there dealing with my bi polar. The name is Columbiana County Mental Health. Excellent place! Try finding a mental health facility around you. They can be alot of help.
As foar as friends, you can leave me a message anytime you need to. It is very important to find a support system to help you. Even if it is just to vent or tell us something good. Just write and you will find people who understand what you are going through.
I wish you luck. Talk to you again soon!
Lori