It's almost 2AM, and for the second night in a row, I'm not asleep like I'd love to be. I'm in that whole trial and error process-that's long and arduous by the way-of finding that right combo of medication that will A.) mesh well with my body chemistry and B.) treat the Bipolar and manage it effectively. Well, so far, so not good. I've been on the roller coaster of manic attacks, thought overload, total sedation, and then complete restlessness for the finish. I'm tired. I know this is the process and I know it's slow when it's done right, but this feels ridiculous.
My body's exhausted, and I could definitely use some normal sleep/real rest would be a bonus, but my mind's not letting me. I don't know if it's this medication limbo I'm playing or just the illness itself, but I'm past tired, and I'm just venting this frustration because it's not like my mind's gonna let me sleep anytime soon...
Pray for me,
Adam
Hi Adam,
I was like that when I started with my 1st and still is my combo of meds. It takes time for the body to adjust and to be balanced again. My Pdoc gave me sleeping pills so I could take them in SOS situations like; anxiety and to sleep if when nothing else works.
Can you talk to your Pdoc and ask him what does he suggests you to do to get good sleep? I know it's a pain when we get too tired and we really need to get at least 10 hours sleep like I do to function. But stay strong it will pass and you will get back to better nights and good rest pretty soon I'm sure of it.
I will pray for you, you take good care, I'll be around if you need to vent or support. Best of luck.
Alex
Sleep has been an ongoing subject with my Pdoc as well as my therapist. So far, she (Pdoc) has felt that the sleep issue is not connected with the meds but after this week especially, I tend to disagree. Her argument is I am getting good amounts of sleep as far as hours, but when I get that sleep is more of a behavioral thing. After this week, I tend to disagree. I'm going to talk to her on Monday when I see her. Thanks for the encouragement.
Adam