finally ready to accept!

sandielee,

Have a seat and come on in.  There are quite a few articles and discussions to read and participate in.  Most of us have heard it all and been there.  We are not lacking of experiences and each has some experience with coping with the disorder.

Congratulations with reaching acceptance, this is always the first hurdle to acheive.  Though, never accept this condition as a part of you, it may affect your behavior but it is not who you are.  To me it is an univited guest, I keep having to kick out for being unruly.

Hi SandieLee

I too would like to welcome you to this wonderful family here at BipolarConnection.  I know for me that when I was able to put a name to my behavior I couldn't have been more thrilled.  I was able to take something for it.  But not long after this, I knew I didn't need med's.  That all I had to do was change the way I behaved.  But this was short lived.  I ended up in the hospital for almost a month.  So I have been on med's now for 13 years.  But it is up to us to admit that we do indeed need help.  No one else can do this for us.  So Congratulations for you accepting this.  Always know that God hasn't stop loving you.  Remember that everyone here knows what you are going through...and the only dumb question is the one you don't ask.  You can't embarrass yourself here...were all in the same boat

I so need to get back on meds but have to find a doctor see a therapist etc etc and then get my meds by then who knows what my state of mind or the condition of my life will be. I am really trying to stay calm and as even as possible but as many may know trying to keep the ups and downs @ bay can be nearly impossible. So at the time I am having to self medicate so I don't freak out. ugh!!! I am just frustrated. I am unemployed partly due to my 'mind' issues that would be in check if only I had had insurance and could see a doctor and stay on meds. but i made too much money to get medical help yet not enough to pay the bills. I have to admit I am getting @ the breaking point and I have never been so apathectic/numb in my life. Anyway, I know and all but I needed to get it off my chest so thanks!!!