I just applied online for some school brochures to be sent to me.
It was overwhelming. I mean..I have no friends or anthing to do these
days. I cant bear the thought of rotting away in this apartment for the
rest of my life.
Tonight is kind of despairing. I feel roadblocks everywhere.
I tried to so call find Nanny work, but I dont have a car. I am really good
at that. I've done it before. My disability wont cut even for me to find one.
I wish I could find a charity that could donate me one. I'm doing the best I can.
I am already hoping for next month to get here so I can get groceries. After bills,
whats left is whats left!! I do love my place though. Its big, and clean and organized.
OCD about clean haha. I would probably puta bullet to my head if I couldnt get online.
My mother judges me too much. Very insensitive and wanting to compete with me intellectually. I love her from afar. All the docs are booked 3 weeks still. I'll be admitting in the next 4 days I'm sure. I'm not stable yet. Geez..kicking around watching a movie or laughing it up with someone would be nice. Last night hypomania set in..racing thoughts hallucinations (auditory) and involuntary face twitching. Oh it was maddness... I hope
I can sleep tonight. I will probably stay up late online. later
It sounds like not very stable right now so I would not recommend that you go forth to pay for an online education. Due to the nature of our mood fluctuations, it is very challenging to meet the demands of SCHEDULED assignments and until you are stable, you are setting yourself up for failure. That does not mean that you should not educate yourself though. There are several universities online, even ivy league institutions, that will allow you to take courses online for free. Obviously these would not offer you credits towards a degree but they will engage your mind, help you learn effective study skills and get a head start on these same types of classes when you do decide to pursue your degree. These courses have the same demands but your first attempts don't have to count. I hate it when failed attempts have to go on permanent record.
If you need assistance in finding a free course to interest you, please feel free to message me and I will do my best to point you in the right direction.
I want to applaud you though for your interest in educating yourself, getting outside of your own head and moving towards recovery. Today, you are living in the solution rather than the problem. Bravo.
So are you a person that sells online courses??
Just wondering. Anyways I am wanting to do this after I get on my meds and get stable.
I dont want to do this while I am not stable. I am pretty much fucked if I do it unstabel ya know!!
I throw out ideas online to get feedback. I wont take them personal..at least i try not to.
No not take classes unstable. Take classes when I get on meds then get stable.
No on selling online courses. I was just offering to help as I have been taking courses this way online towards my chaplain's license. My courses are tuition free but in doing my search, I found many other types of classes,... most anything you could imagine. I was just offering to help in good will.
Peace.