I have seen numerous Mental Health professionals starting at age15. Originally for mood swings. Then along came the anger, anxiety, depression, ptsd, phobias, unhealthy impulses etc. & as of 3yrs ago, the lovely Bipolar. I moved home after my husband deployed a few months ago. I have a new & (to me)very different Psychotherapist for 3 months now. He's different because: 1- He's Male. But strangely I am very comfortable with him. I've of course had the pyhysical & sexual & mental abuse, along with a lot of abandonment by men through out my life. So I've always had a female Therapist because it just seemed like the logical thing to do. And: 2- Something VERY new to me, we began Heart-Centered Hypnotherapy a few weeks ago. He has helped me MORE in 3 months than 10 YEARS of seeking psychological help! My husband's deployment got cut short & I'm extremely upset that I have to move now. I feel a strong trust & comfort bond with him. I was just getting started on my road to mental wellness & we were doing great. I'm at the point where I just want to quit therapy. I really don't feel like repeating myself all over again & basically starting from scratch once more! Nor do I feel like taking another 10 year journey exploring for the Therapist i can connect with.I just don't understand though why I'm upset to the extent that I am? I've cried a few good times since my last appointment. I was almost in my old blissful world once again, but now...I'm just starting to feel pretty bitter towards life again. My mood is...Angry...and honestly, I couldn't care less about anything at the moment...Any advice on how to deal with this?
Hi.
That's a pain, when we finally find someone we really trust and then have to lose it again. I do have an idea, could you have video conference with him, I don't know if you have a web cam and skype you could have your appointment over the internet live!!
I hope it helps, just don't cry or feel depressed there is always a way to do things this is one example, I hope it's what you want or possible for you.
I wish you all the best and don't give up ok?!
Alexandra
Hey,
I had to comment when I read this because I am going through the same thing right now with losing a counselor I trusted and once again having to find someone else to replace him. The counselor I lost recently has been pretty much my rock for the last 3 years as I too suffer from bipolar disorder. I'm pregnant right now and seem to be doing alright but I know it's only a matter of time before I slide again. My counselor, it took me 5 years to find one I could trust and who would listen to me and my problems and help me work through them, and this man did it all it seemed. It has been very upsetting to me to lose him. I trusted him, if there was something I couldn't even tell my boyfriend, now fiance, I knew I could tell him. It was nothing for me to walk into the office and just spill my guts even on my darkest days. And now I have to start all over again. Luckily the clinic I'm going back to is requesting all my records so I think I'll just tell them to read up on my case history before asking me stupid questions. Before this guy, it took me 5 other counselors at this clinic I'm going back to and not one of them could help me nor did they seem like they cared enough to even try. But he did and I stuck with him for quite awhile, even after I moved from the county. Our county policies are strict about who they'll pay for services and they were actually kind enough to pay another county because I was already established and doing well.
I just wanted to let you know that I understand how hard it is, I'm doing it myself, but you can do this. Just take it one step at a time. I too was an Army wife, though I never had the opportunity, nor the misfortune, of having to move all the time. I'm sure it's very difficult for you to have to find a new counselor every so often. Honestly, in my opinion, as a fellow Bipolar I, don't look for a new counselor until you're ready to talk again. It'll just frustrate you and sadden you even more. Just remember, no matter how frustrating this is, YOU CAN DO THIS! One thing I've learned is that you have to be stronger than the disorder. If you let it run your life, it'll be nothing but chaos. Learning self-control and saying "I know I can do this. I got this!" really helps make things a lot easier. Just keep your head in the game but like I said, don't go back until it's absolutely necessary or until you feel you're completely ready to do it.
Good luck to you!
Teri
Hi Teri,
Thank your for the support, it means alot. At this moment I am trying to get an appointment´with my pdoctor and still waiting for a response. I don't go there since June 2010, it seems I am a bad bipolar LOL and now I'm ignored because of that. I am going through difficult times with depression and emocional explosions that I do my very best not to let it show in front of anybody specialy at work.
I finally am working after 8 years of being sick with bipolar, only been diagnosed about 2 years ago.
It is hard to be back to the "real world" after coming out of hell... And sometimes there are things happening at work that I really have to be carefull not to put me down or lose control emotionaly.
Nothing new here I know, it's our daily batles we have to overcome but still, I feel alone and sometimes desperate for help because it's so hard not to feel lost or losing my mind, ,being close to losing control.
We do need good doctors around us when we really need them which is most of the time at least for us to vent to.
I could go on and on but it is a very long message already please forgive me.
I do hope you'll find the right doc, my heart is with you. I'm here always for you.
By the way, when your baby is going to be born?
Sorry for my bad English I am so tired LOL I just got home from work going to eat something now.
Take care, chat with you soon if you want.
Alex