This week I was already at my maximum allowed weight (set by me) before we even ate Thanksgiving dinner. After that, I stopped weighing myself. For some reason, I don’t seem to be able to stop my compulsive eating in front of the TV at night while watching Netflix movies.
When I wake up at 2 a.m. with heartburn, I tell myself I will not eat anything after dinner the following night. But that intention floats away on the ether when nighttime arrives. I have a small piece of apple pie. Then a small bowl of nuts and m&ms. Then I see Adrian eating a piece of leftover Mexican cornbread (rich with cheese and spicy), so I grab a small piece, too. Notice the adjective “small” in front of everything. My intentions are good. But I finish off with a medium-sized bowl of chocolate mint chip ice-cream. And at 2 a.m. I’m reaching for the antacids again.
During the day, I eat very sensibly. Three healthy meals with lots of vegetables and salads, and no snacking in between. But after supper I always seem to feel that I deserve a reward for getting through the day. And that reward includes a glass of wine and dessert. Then, once I get started, I slide down the rabbit hole and never look back.
What’s the solution? Well, when the overeating and drinking interferes with my sleep enough, I eventually muster up the willpower to cut back for a while. But then, as soon as things are better, I go back to my bad habits.
How can we stop our compulsive behaviors? Sometimes I think we have to wait until the consequences get bad enough in order to find the motivation. I just wish I was moved as much by the positive rewards, like getting a good night’s sleep and losing weight, instead of having to wait until things get bad. What about you?
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Published On: November 29, 2006
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