Here I am in the middle of another bad depression. I have bipolar II and I so fight with depression. It has been so difficult for me to keep my head above water. I feel very guilty and very ashamed because I just cannot seem to get a grip on this illness. I do not have many people around me who understand so I really try and hide it but that takes so much energy. I left my job due to this depression and now I just hide out. When I was feeling good I started dating again and now I have a boyfriend who moved in with me. He is a nice man and I have told me about my bipolar but here I am sinking again. I have not let him see this but I have told him about it. He said that I did not act depressed and that I should think about the people in places like China who are suffering so.........I know that many people in this world are much worse off than I am and I do not need to be told that. I just want to take to my bed until this passes but I feel that I cannot not do that. So I pretend but it is getting almost impossible to keep this up. I do not trust people with my depression because I have not been treated very kindly when I have reached out. Does anyone have any suggestions? I just need to be me, even if that me is depressed............I cannot pretend anymore because it feels like it is killing me...........thanks for your input.....Pam
Another depression
by otterloWednesday, May 21, 2008
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