I have started an online journal.
If anyone is interested... http://mindcycling.blogspot.com/
If anyone is interested... http://mindcycling.blogspot.com/
Since I post here almost daily :) I still feel pretty new to this diagnosis even though its been going on nearly 7 months since I got sick. I am drowning in paperwork, and I feel like a broken record. First of all my employer denied my FMLA and fired me and I lost my insurance. (EFF off TMOBILE :) ) So not I am applying for disability,... Read more
It is almost sadistic. I get these fleeting moments of normalcy, though they are gone by morning, but not forgotten. Is there a time of day that crazy just takes a nap? Is it a sign of getting better, getting worse? I am so tired of new things happening to be honest with you! I would settle for manic if I thought I would stay there... at... Read more
I don't really have a question as much as I have the need to vent, so here I go. I feel like I have been rebelling if that makes sense. I have pierced my face, tattooed my arm and blackened my hair all since May. I take 6 pills a day I have no sense of self or identity, and I feel honestly that I don't belong anywhere. I don't mean that in a... Read more
That is how my brain feels anyway. Scrambled. I have been slapped with a rapid cycling whatever on top of my many other talents and endearing qualities. Yay. I am a different Amber everyday. The only upside is that my memory is shot thanks to all of the medications so I don't remember what Amber I was yesterday and don't have to feel embarrassed... Read more