Scrambled Eggs

By AmberNichole Wednesday, September 30, 2009

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That is how my brain feels anyway. Scrambled. I have been slapped with a rapid cycling whatever on top of my many other talents and endearing qualities. Yay. I am a different Amber everyday. The only upside is that my memory is shot thanks to all of the medications so I don't remember what Amber I was yesterday and don't have to feel embarrassed about whatever ridiculous manic nonsense that took place. My medications just keeps going up and up and so on. Yet I cant say that I feel any better, if anything my dillusions have only gotten worse. I have only been at this for 5 months and I am already exhausted. Magic cure please?

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alxv

9/30/09 5:30am

I wish I had one for you...

I'm sorry if you aren't getting the right combo of meds to keep you more in balance and in charge. There must be a way to do that, don't lose hope, maybe you have been to the wrong docs because I'm sure there will be one formula for your needs.

I hope you'll feel better soon. By the way, have you tried to take some supplement for your memory loss? It might help to take it and to make some memory exercise to improve it.

Take care see you around.

Alex

quietlove

10/ 8/09 11:51pm

I know how you feel... I was in a 6 month cycle of rapid cycling... losing my brain every day... I went to my doctor at one point when I just was at my wits end... I could not eat or sleep... react with people. He gave me zyprexa... within a week i had gained 10 lbs and felt like dying... so reason I am telling you this is to be careful if you are taking zyprexa... Rapid cycling is not fun. I have not found anything that can calm me down. I feel for you hon!

When I started taking my meds... and my memory was getting less and less I talked to my dr and he told me that it is something that he has heard of bipolars' memories detriorating after some time... because we over think.. over do and over analize EVERYTHING...

Hope I am some help.

dark angel

10/22/09 7:39pm

the only cure that i can think of is to just keep expressing yourself, and by doing that you can see what you need to to deal and with what you need to deal with. there is no getting out, i have tried everything...i even thought at one point that i was better, but i was just being optimistic. i keep trying to get better and i keep evolving but well it seems like my psychosis is gone, it just changes and is still just as bad, sometimes. but i do like the creativity of it...if and when can i get creative...i've gotten so used to being bipolar that, even though i keep gettig suicide, i like it!?

darkangel

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