Random Amber

Well, I'll just randomly babble back then since you didn't really ask a question, kinda like talking to someone at work.  Going out is something I think a lot if not all people who used to party and enjoyed it or looked at it as 'good times' (at least some of the times) will always struggle with wanting to do again.  It may only get to be a fleeting feeling eventually, like it is for me, but I still feel it, and so does my super old auntie who's retired now! I still go once in a blue moon, but have a lot more fun going to a fancy restaurant and having a glass of expensive wine with appy's...although not sure either of us should do much more from the looks of our meds This summer I went to an outdoor concert and it was pretty wild, did more than I shoulda, and had to leave halfway through cause I didn't like getting moshed like I used to.  I just make sure I have other stuff to do.

Your hair and jewelry will always be reversable girl, you are just trying to get your emotions out in some other way, sometimes it feels good. Don't fret, but I've just had to get a half sleeve to fix an ugly one I did years ago (or I thought it was ugly), now that is hard to get adjusted to!! I like it though, (lotus flowers and stuff) my conversational point is to be careful with tats, just cause you may like 'em now and wish 'em gone later, but you know that, hehe.

I wish you all the best with your new routine, you can do it! How's about some yoga? Or dance lessons? An online course? Meh, its a hard life, sucks for me half the time but I am glad to feel better than the nutso person I became last time I went off, never want to go there again.

Take care.

I can see that you like most people including self medicate some way some how. There is no real reason why we make the decision that we make. I normally try to reconize what I am doing 1st, though its hard, I try to control the strong urges of feeling like I need something, but I dont know what. Good lcuk

Hi Amber.

About that scream, I have it for some years now...

In my case, life as turned bitter sweet and hasn't change as I need it to, that creates anxiety and I feel that need to scream until this town turns into dust.

I feel that I don't belong anywhere either, Amber, and doesn't help when we live in a world costume made that doesn't fit us...

Do you need an important change in your life? Do you feel good about who you are? Maybe it would do you good talking to someone close to you or doing some therapy to understand where it comes from. Maybe it's just BP messing up your mind, or you just wanting to create an identity for that lost feeling of belonging.

On the other hand, I hope you have got good art on your tattoos; I always wanted to do just 2.  I want to go to Miami Ink for it hehhehehhehehhehehehhe they are great artists.

I wish you'll feel better soon, take care.

Alex

I am a parent of a bipolar child and I am just curious if any of the women out there with bipolar disorder also have been diagnosed with PCOS (irregular menstrual cycles).