Overstimulated

I too am having difficulty getting my "coping skills" time....mine is to remove myself from others/place/whatever it is that is causing the anxiety and uhm use my coping skills to get back calm...well, can't get anywhere there isn't SOMEONE around or calling for me, or something and i feel like SOOOOO guilty for i NEED literally NEED that time alone....that time to recoup....but not that they are the problem, it is just ME.....and i need that too so much....

BUT have found that today after all have settled down a little and all kids back on routine (except son is still not back at school of course but 17 and easy to distract him for he loves playstation) but all the visitors, the meals, the on and on.....i have been manic for DAYS and no sleep and that is a formula for disaster I know that but can't do a darn thing about it. Meds are doing all they can but the environment affects me sooooo much, and raining so i can't even get out on the four wheeler and get a brief get away!! ARGH!!
Oh my, there was the day I so looked forward to the holiday season, and now, well to be honest it is OVERWHELMING BIG TIME

just today i am feeling the "coming" down of the mania and my body now feels like LEAD and limbs so heavy it is indescribable, so headed quickly the other way.....

and had a rash of weird deaths during this time too....besides my sister in law i told you about on the 10th, there have been 5 others SINCE THEN!!! (one a 21 year old that I taught in school when i could work that left behind a 10 month old baby, one was my sunday school teacher as a kid, another a fellow beekeeper, another my husbands cousin, and yet another a friend from years gone by) sooooo it's been a real real rollercoaster to put it gently.....emotions everywhere ....mania rampid and i mean RAMPID....and now the beginning of the depression starting..being a rapid cycler i have gone from Mania to depressed to irritated to tearful all in seconds within the last few weeks...so I too will be glad when it is all past.....Not that i don't revere the birth of Christ but i don't think this was the way it was supposed to be done.......too much materialism, too much commercialism for what i feel it should be.....A CALM AND PEACEFUL NIGHT OF ADORATION For our saviour but dealing so you hang in there too

ps i did get a small reprieve when i VOLUNTEERED to burn the christmas wrap trash (we can burn our trash here in my area for WAY WAY out in country) and that gave me about 10 minutes of time alone that i will cherish forever...thinnk i'll volunteer for this more often tehee...

STAY ON MEDS And STAY aware of state your in and remember a friend is thinking of you....hold tight girl, almost over honey, almost over...

Sincerely

ctrygirl

I'm not bipolar but honestly I get overstimulated as well.  As a kid, I'd go hide out in an extra bedroom and take a nap.  Now I'm more likely to say my goodbyes after a couple of hours.

There is so much stress with the holidays.  You spend too much money on gifts someone may use one time and you feel obligated to be all happy and social whether you want to or not.

It will be over soon.  Hang in there kiddo.

Our tendencies when running on the low side is to recluse. We also have a natural instinct to reduce the amount of stimulations that usually comes from being around others. We have a tendency to make other peoples problems our own to the point of owning them.

If a friend tells you that they are having relationship problems, you end up spending a lot of time thinking about this person and how to fix it as if it were you having the relationship issues. When the truth of the matter was a friend was just venting and felt better the minute they got it off their chests to you and wanted you to do noting.

Understanding that these feelings will pass and not to act upon them is the key. You really need to be around family and friends as much as possible as not to dwell too much on yourself. Of course your anxiety levels are going to be a bit higher because up to this point you have done well to avoid all interactions the rest of the year.

You have the upper hand with being the identified person with a mental illness at family gatherings. Use this to your advantage in saying and doing things to people you wished you had for years. Learn some Latin chant words that you can repeat well over and over like in the poltergeist when someone you would much rather not listen to decides to go into a rendition of their life…that should shut them up with fear.

Honestly…we need human interactions to survive so try to reduce the isolations. Can you pretend that they are naked? OMG…that in itself would cause me more anxity!