Ok, so every month I go on downers.  Downers where I can't function, I have no wit, no energy, and I'm screaming inside to get up but I can't.  It affects everything in my life, but it's only for a short while and then I'm back, feeling fine.  What the hell is this?  Rapid-cycling?  I tend to feel somewhat manic once a month about.  I've cleaned up my Ptsd symptoms (well as much as one can!) and I am now noticing the very large and ever so subtle problem with the bipolar.  I'm still trying to accept it.  Though I know in my core it's me.  The lows, by the way, aren't like depression.  They're like someone's drugged my body and my mind falls asleep...am I making sense?  Sorry.