So I saw my doc today, mostly because I have some kind of dumb mucus membrane infection (yuck, double yuck) with just one side of my face in major pain and weird blisters in my mouth, what the heck is that? Its happened before. I need T3's to manage it and lots my tolerance is high. Another issue though, of great importance. I can't stand taking gravol several times a week on lithium and want to find out if we can try something else for a while and see how I do.
He's fine with dropping down a bit, after all I'm also on topirimate and wellbutrin, but I'm only on 900 lithium and to drop down, well he says go ahead and do 600 we can always get some 150's and try 750 again. Obviously at some point I went in to see him because I was feeling way too nuts and needed to go up. I remember needeng to take a lot of valium for not handling life, and I can lately, for the most part. I just hate the friggin nausea...
I must mention too that I'm in college and my concentration sucks, memory too. I KNOW lithium affects that, but my doc says it would help my concentrate because my bipolar brings out the mania...I don't get it. I'm just soooooo scared to drop down that low, and not taper to something else, will I start freaking out? I've been stable for a long time...I just gotta try.
Input would be lovely 
I would like to try some new stuff, I've felt better on all of this though except for that and the nausea. There was a time I could not be stopped from self destruction, and I hate hurting other people too. That's why I'm scared. Thanks guys for your kind thoughts 
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Hi kad, I was wondering how are you doing these days and I'm so sorry you are not feeling well.
I know you have tried other meds and it seems they didn't worked well enough. My doc gave me the choice between toxic meds and safe one's and obviously I said "safe" ones... I do love this combination of valproic acid with antiphsycotic and antidepressive with lexotan (in case of anxiety which is very rare these days...)it works beautifly and valproic acid works miracles in my mood swings and my temper so I'm pretty much "normal" now with this combo.
Have you tried anything like this at the same time? I take 1 antidepressive; half of an antiphsycotic (he wanted me to take 1 full pill but the side efects are horrible, so I take half against his weel) and 1 valproic acid instead of the 2 he prescribed because I'm afraid that it could make my ovary problems worse. Still it works wonders for me these combination a day. Valproic acid is what he had gave me instead of lithium because I don't want to feel sick and put more poison in my body,I was already too ill with BP disorder I didn't had the strength to deal with more bad efects.
My doc doesn't like to prescribe too much meds but only the enough combo to balance this disorder and I will be thankfull for that for the rest of my life, he has saved me from a terrible short life if he didn't got it right.
Maybe you should get a secund opinion Kad, maybe your doc is not the right one to help you, just a thought...
I will pray for your recovery and well being, you deserve to be well and happy and I'm sure you will be very soon.
Take care Kad despite knowing you are not well, I'm glad to hear from you again, I worry about you guys, you all are very dear to me.
Alex