I had momentum at the start of the year (september) and I am so pooping out now...I know lots of you might not know what to say but I neeeeed help!!!!! I feel like my attention span is zippidy do da, all I want to do is look at face book or have a nap, I'm stressed like crazy about exams coming up again (and I did really well on the first midterm, not sure about the other course, only doing two this term, one is 5 credits) so you'd think I would be digging in. I failed two classes last year that I'm re-doing now, they were super hard ones and there's like 6 people repeating with me, but I still feel like a dummy a bit and slacker and here I go again!!!! I thought going down in lithium would help with memory and it seems to have done that on last exam, but not seemingly with other stuff like energy, whaaaaat, is it fall?? What am I gonna do I have another set of exams in one week!!!! *pant*pant*ok, I'm settling down.
I have to finish this, I've put too much money into it and absolutely loathe my current carreer. I think I need a brain transplant.
really don't know what to say
I'll take a shot or two though...
lithium... drains energy
when I have been on it, and I have several times... it left me drained of considerable energy... it left me severely lethargic, unmotivated, drained, and apathetic. It's is for those reasons that I finally just left it and have not gone back to it, though it helps wonderfully for my suicidal impulsivity.
a question
do you mood chart or mood journal?
i ask cause you said that you had momentum at the start of this school year but now it seems to have pooped out... would you perhaps be cycling?
keeping a mood chart and/or mood journal over time might kinda give you a idea as to when things are starting, stopping, or are expected to kinda start if they become somewhat regular
course... there is the suggestion of always talking these issues you are having over with your therapist and your pdoc. It is what they are there for, after all.
that's about it
sorry I don't have anything else to add
but, I wanted to put something on the screen
ok, I don't know what mood charting is but I can look it up
I don't have a pdoc because he fired me (my first one 3 years ago) and my GP took over, apparently he tried to get me another without success, I think he just likes doing this job...but I don't think he's qualified enough for some of it. I really should find a counselor for sure, I've had one before. I always try and do things on my own and totally hibernate, time gets away from me. I guess too I figured going down on my med. I wouldn't have less energy but more, and more focus too, I know I was a rapid cycler with ups and downs before being more stable and its been raining here for over a week...blaaaaaaaah.
sug... a mood chart is a chart - and it could be a pocket calendar or a student planner - where you write each day a number corresponding to your mood or anxiety level, etc...
or however way you'd want to make it.. a way to visually track how each day goes so that you and/or your doc can look over it and see if a pattern emerges.
the internet has mood charts and you can look around and see if any strike your fancy OR you can make one yourself... it's just a suggestion to help yourself and your GP... completely up to you as to whether you want to try it or not
alcohol, even wine cause it's alcohol, does not mix well with the meds or the moods and that's all I'll say on it (not being a miss priss, I've got my own issues with a bottle)
therapy with a counselor to try and figure the moods and how to manage them may not be a bad idea Kad to look into... meds just do not treat Bipolar alone. therapy can be expensive and i get that and most don't like the idea of doing it so.. it's completely up to you but just plain ole med treatment for Bipolar isn't going to cut it in the long run
you are stressed and anxious over the classes and this is driving the mood swinging and inattentiveness. this then drives the anxiety and depression you are likely feeling much higher. it is a proverbial snowball that if you allow it to continue rolling.. will get bigger and faster.
Maybe getting in and seeing the GP about the meds then, may be a good suggestion...
I like your hair color as well... I envy you young gals being able to change your hair color here and there and hair cuts... way cool (or is that the wrong wording now?
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