Oh, **** I am having the overwhelming urge to throw breakables at the wall, so much so that its unbearable. I'm down on my lith dose for brain issues (I want it to work better) and barf issues (I'm sick of taking gravol) but its been almost 2 weeks and I cannot focus on school, think I'm getting depressed, starting to scream more and more at him....actually think I have darned good reason to hate him...uuuuhhhggg!!!!!!! And tonight he wants to go out with a friend for drinks, like noooooo waaayyyyy!!!!!!!! I want to hit him with a heavy cup. Somebody help. I think I need lithium. Shoot. I think he makes me ligitamatly mad but I'm overreacting, and it's crazy, I'm thinking he's going to strippers and stuff.



And I should add, I'm just soooo mad that he would suggest this right now when we have no money (oh but his friend is a millionare, and I ain't joking) and haven't been on a 'date' in like weeks maybe months he says out of courtesy he didn't invite me cause I'm studying...........................................how nice of you #@#@%&&%***&%#@#@..................much better now. I hope I don't drink too much tonight.
Thanks for listening, now you know way too much about how crazy I am.
I am in the same boat. I want to throw and scream and hit and yell and run. I dont have any good advice only that I am there with you. I hate it, I seem better and them wham... effing crazy amber comes out to play. I am so sorry, but be mad if you want, yell explatives and if need be throw some stuff!