What have I done, I don't want to take gravol forever, waaaah.

Oh, **** I am having the overwhelming urge to throw breakables at the wall, so much so that its unbearable. I'm down on my lith dose for brain issues (I want it to work better) and barf issues (I'm sick of taking gravol) but its been almost 2 weeks and I cannot focus on school, think I'm getting depressed, starting to scream more and more at him....actually think I have darned good reason to hate him...uuuuhhhggg!!!!!!! And tonight he wants to go out with a friend for drinks, like noooooo waaayyyyy!!!!!!!! I want to hit him with a heavy cup. Somebody help. I think I need lithium. Shoot. I think he makes me ligitamatly mad but I'm overreacting, and it's crazy, I'm thinking he's going to strippers and stuff.