Hello There,  I feel for you as I am experiencing some of the same feelings...but not all.  I am 48 and going through menopause, so I get the hormone part of what your going through.  Though you are pregnant are you happy to be pregnant?  Is this your first child? That could play a role in your time of need.  Plus you need to be prepared for post part um depression.

I just sign up for an outpatient program that is five days a week 9  - 2 PM at a Hospital in CT. They have a three day program if you can't commit to the five days.  When you are doing better they do put you in a 3 day program.  No longer than 6 - 8 weeks...They said it could be 3 weeks.  I have been to a couple of these programs in my life time and it always helps me.  I get to talk to many people so I don't feel alone. That I am with normal people who have the same problems I do, so they know what I might be feeling and have great suggestions.  I can always give ideas too.   I will have a new psych Dr. checking my med's.  I have one on one time as well.  Plus I can see my personal therapist, but she is having a baby too and well I won't be able to see her for a month or so.  So she really wanted me to go into the program.

I am on Lamictal for the suicide thoughts.  Cymbalta for antidepressant, Trazadone for sleep, and Colonapin for anxiety.  I know there are safe drugs to take during your pregnancy, but don't know what they are.  I was always worried if my daughter got pregnant and would be able to be still on something...but that won't happen for a long time.

Going to an in house program will motivate you not to be in bed so much.   Talking and learning new coping methods will help you as well.  For now and for the future when you start feeling bad again.

I was on a manic stage which was for the first time in seven years for 8 months and felt great.  I did not want to play with my med's as this was great for me.  BUT, the Bi Polar signs came out in a more aggressive way and I was not sleeping.  So they cut back my med's...AT CHRISTMAS TIME...Which is the hardest time for me and the winter months as well....They put me back on my regular dose as I crashing big time.  But I am not feeling good on the higher dose of med's..and I am angry.

If you need to talk...My email address is Diamondsib@aol.com.

I will be your sounding board if you want.

If not....Look into a program who can help you. 

Best of Luck

Siobhan