Going through a bipolar depression episode now !

Im not new to this site , Im bipolar , I always go onto this to check up etc... but this time Im on site to say Im going through hell right now.

Ive hit a major bipolar low , depression , sleeping all the time , not motivated , despising myself feel like Im a waste of oxygen. It doesnt help Im pregant and hormonal/emotional now so the bipolar low is now that much worse.

I just need to talk. I dnt know what to say but Im flooded with thoughts and feelings , wish I could just totally escape life and stay asleep , there is no pain in sleep , no thoughts in sleep , no hurt , no guilt.