i feel so alone

i feel so alone all the time... its likk none of mii family payes any care or attention to me... i walk in the room and they all get quiet... likk they where talken about something secret... i go and sit and they all act uncomfortable! and when i leave the room or walk away from where ever they are... they all get happy and talkitave again.. nd mothers day... was awful!!!!! thats all i can say... i cryed all day.... and i tryed... i actually tried! and i sat down and talked to mii sister and mii cousin marina and they walked away... likk i wasnt even there... and likk i didnt even try... and i was kinda upset about that... but im used to it... then i walked out to the living room and tried to be apart... it happaned again... then i just gave up and grabed mii cellphone and walked out and smoked... i was high on mothers day... that was the only good thing... its likk every time i actually try... its likk i end up getting more upset... and pissed off... right now im on probation for assault and battery... and i dont likk it... alot of stuff has started at mii GED night school... people are so ignorant... its not even funny... i wish people wouldnt judge...