Just wanted to let everybody know that i'm feeling much better. My husband and I went to see my counselor together for the first time the other day, which help me out alot. Didn't get to see my doctor, he was out of country due to a death in his family. I opened up alot more to my counselor and it helped to get to root of alot of my problems other than just being off my meds. I did learn that being truely honest with urself and the ones that love u and are trying to help u, is the best and only way to help urself. I'm getting back on my meds, I made it through another episode and I'm stronger for it. Thanks to everyone who sent me encouraging words.