Threw my eyes only

Threw My Eyes Only

I am my depression.  It chooses my days, my feelings, and my love of family and life.  When it is inside me it chooses everything.

It wants me to leave this place, it guarantee's me no more pain, no more hurting of the ones I love.

It seems to be the only one who can guarantee freedom. Counseling and meds help but it is still there lurking, coming out when it wants, depriving my family and I a life.

Days are too long nights are too short. I am sitting in this dark hole that has me embraced so tight I can't breath.

Searching for answer but too hopeless and faithless that they are there. So much sadness for a disease that I know will eventually take my life.

I am too tired.  I can't watch my children and my loved ones watching me die every day.

Please hear my call as well as every other person who suffers. We never can quite understand the whys or how to stay strong enough to beat it.