So, went to yet another psych agency a few weeks ago who put me through 6 hours of heavy psych testing and then wrote me a script for carbamazepine XR 200mg twice a day.

He said I suffered a traumatic brain injury during my car wreck and I had all the symptoms of such.. memory, cognition, focus all gradually eroding.  Might have ADD, they said, but in that I was never tested before the accident... couldn't say for absolute sure though the 6 hours of testing showed high marks.

Because I have seizures, or seizure spells, and followed by a neurologist who treats me for them but on the side insinuates they are psychosomatic (which I told the new pdoc)... the new pdoc decides this medication would be great for my seizures and for my mood.  It would help clear up any fogginess the topiramate (generic Topomax) may be causing and give them a clearer image of my dysfunctioning.

Now... me and meds rarely if ever go together.  I have a high sensitive system thanks to my mother.  Allergies primarily but adverse reactions aren't a distant possibility.  Even other the counter meds can slam me in the oddest of ways or break me out into the hives so fierce.  So, me has to be careful... low and slow is always the best to go with me.

Yet... because I've had so many problems with taking meds... I've become quite weary and disillusioned by them all.  Honestly, I have panic attacks at every new med some doc wants me to have a go at.  PTSD, I guess of taking pills due to the countless ones I've been on since age of 10.

Yet.. I is desparate as always.  That is when I go a seeking psych doc help... when I am desparate cause the illness is raging an inferno and I can't quiet it down or water it down to function with some minut measure of societal acceptance.

So... took the damn med and took it for over a week.  Had high hopes actually for it caused no real side effects outside of profound drowsiness which actually helped considerably at night... but during the day left me hungover and laying on the floor almost.  Still... high hopes.

UNTIL

the itching started

Little random itching here and there.  Nothing all over like typical.  Just mad itching on the elbow, then on the leg, then in the ear, all in some frequent time spaced intervals... at the start.  Yet, as I kept taking the medication... the time spaced intervals grew shorter and the itching grew more profound.

So... off the med I go.

However... pdoc has no clue what to do with me now.  My new pdoc has no clue what to do with me now.  My newest pdoc has no clue what to do with me now... no clue.

I've had so many meds for so many years... with little to no relief, if they held in my system, or drugs that I had allergic reactions to or horrendous adverse reactions.  So... now he is scratching his head.. his PA said he didn't have a clue what to do ..with me now.  My newest pdoc has no clue what to do with me.