newest neuropsych can't decide if I am one of the small % that is med sensitive because of my immune system OR if I am one of the small % that is psychologically adversed to medication... he told me this just this morning

the same neuropsych that told me last month during our 1st visit that he believed I was suffering from cognitive dysfunctioning due to my auto wreck years back... now can't find anything documented in my medical records that anyone ever told me I had a head injury - whether mild or moderate - and "why would the doctors make this up and not document?  Do you think they wouldn't document?"

they documented me as having major back injury requiring back surgery which I never had cause they mixed someone else's records into my chart... but, I couldn't explain that to the newest neuropsych

then he asked "has anyone ever told you that you had Borderline Personality Disorder?"

I answered "I've been screened and never diagnosed and I've asked all the psychiatrists and therapists over the last 6 years and they've all assured me that I didn't have it."

his response: "How did they screen you and who all told you that you didn't have it?"

by the way... his 6.5 hours of psychological testing didn't show it neither but, I digress

I don't have Bipolar.  No surprise.  I've often said that if you were to place 4 psychiatrists in a room and had them go over someone's symptomatology separately... they'd come out with 4 different diagnoses or different versions of the same diagnoses.  They'd not all come out with the same.

He got upset that I told him I had been diagnosed several times since 2006 by several psychiatrists.  I told him of the mania hospitalizations, the suicidal hospitalizations, the severe post partum depressions, etc... just as I told him a month ago. 

He then wanted to know why I wasn't still with any of those and why not just return to them if I believed I had Bipolar?

I explained about money, insurance, they switching agencies, etc... all the stuff I explained last month when I saw him for the 1st time.

Then he looked at me and asked "have you ever had any psychotherapeutic treatment in your life?  You know, psychotherapy?"

I explained, yet again, that I have had psychotherapy off and on for over 30+ years.

"Why aren't you going to anyone now?"

"Because of the money and the insurance and I had hoped you had one here I could start up with."

Nope

I am to find my very own psychotherapist, he said.  Oh and I am to see his PA from here on out.  He had no time to continue seeing me and I would be "handed off to one of my PAs who deals with females that have Mood Disorders".

I got my low dose lithium, by the way and I'm to return in 2 weeks.

Otherwise... he didn't know what else to do for me.  He remarked that I had been on many different meds over the years and had adverse reactions or side effects on many of them.