I can't cry, it won't let me...

Sometimes I have a good cry just cuz I feel like it.  I'm sorry for all you're going through.  Stupid husband.  I bet you were ready to fly out of that bed and punch him huh?  I hope things get better for you.  You're in my prayers.

Tabby, there is a balance and requires a balancing act of what emotions are real and which ones are stemming from the illness. We do need to feel those aka normal emotions but the usual response is those emotions once they reach their full potential seem to trigger something in the brain that says ok…time to go crazy.

You were saying of the similarities between you and your niece when you were her age. I can remember my first three years after being diagnosed of thinking that the majority of people that I knew had to be bipolar because of the way they acted and how it related to me. At one point I was convinced that everyone had a mental illness to a degree and would catalog them in my head not by their personalities but by a mental illness…there goes so and so, can you say borderline?

It’s not the emotions that get us into trouble and you are right in saying that there shouldn’t be a pill for everything. What separates us from the normies is where we end up taking it and the crap the illness adds and trying to figure it out if it is reality bases or just plain crazy.

I have to admit that I still tag people much of the time as to what diagnoses bet fits them. You’re ex…bipolar with running off with the mistress and suicidal tendencies for bringing her to the hospital to see you. And to the comment about woman going through hormonal issues (I am a man)…they should be made to go on hormone replacement because of the homicidal tendencies they exhibit while dealing with it and others.

I am a survivor of these said tendencies and instead of displaying a yellow ribbon on our front door I have a sign in the door yard that displays the Department of Homeland Security's color-coded threat warning system colors telling others if there is a hostile threat inside and when it’s better to just drive by verses stopping in.

I say for those woman unwilling to take hormone replacement, we should send them off to Iraq and Afghanistan and I am sure that the entire conflict would be resolved in less than six months.

Tabby….as to not being able to cry, take it easy on yourself because I can remember in the not so distant past of the opposite being true for you and wishing that you could only find some peace. Keep your chin up and talk with your doc.