Anxiety and procrastination

Karri28,

You can only do one thing at a time.  If it concerns the goal of tasks that have piled up due to time lost dealing with depression, you may have to prioritze the tasks and break each down as a single goal to complete.  Maybe, if you make a prioritized list with a with a reasonable time to complete each task, then focus on one task, not all of them.  Completing a task will result in accomplishment and maybe with that in mind you can put your mind at rest when you should be sleeping.  Knowing you will perform much better with sleep and be able to make more progress tomorrow, may also be a good reason to let go of "all" that must be done.  There is alway plenty of time to worry in the morning.  Hopefully. by that time you will be working on the goal of completing a task.

It is always best to do something about internal dialogue as soon as you notice it before the emotions increase and keep driving the and escalating the thoughts.  At times I wake up to the point that I begin to think and sometimes a thought intrudes and brings me fully awake.  I found that if I lay there, in bed it will just continue.  So, I get up, grab a book or try to meditate.  In an hour I am usually ready to return to bed and fall back asleep.

Like knowthyself....I also will make a list of things that need to be done, but just didn't get done.  Depression can rob us of many precious things such as sleep, since this is one of the most important things we do need to get done.  Bedtime seems to be the time when all these thoughts come seeping out of the darkness.  I now have one of those lights next to my bed that all you have to do is touch it and it comes on.  I keep a tablet and pen on it, along with a book.  I find it easier to reach out with a touch than actually having to sit up to find the knob to turn it on.  I list everything thats running through my brain, then number them in their importance.  If you have...lets say alot of laundry that needs to be done..break them down on your list.  Such as the baby is just about out of things to wear.  Thats where you start.  Break your list down even more.  Break them all down to smaller things.  Take them one at a time.  If you have bills to pay..pay one a day or two if your able.  I think you know what I'm saying...break the list down until you no long feel overwhelm.  I wish you luck..and keep posting here, you'll fine it helps from others who know what your going through.