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So I've finally started seeing a psychologist again, and so far I like him. I've never seen a male for therapy before, so it is a new experience for me.
Anyway. He suggested that right now with being a stay at home mom (SAHM) that I am feeling overwhelmed b/c I do not have a set routine or schedule. I have a basic one, things we do everyday but nothing really solid, it is kinda just as we go. So I've started one, and boy have I over done it! I'm trying to be flexible and if something doesn't work to move things around. I like having a routine, when I was working everything was very structured, the only time that wasn't was after work at home, and even then I had a basic routine. I would get most flustered and anxious when things would go crazy like with big training exercises.
I like having a routine to go by, and am slowly building it up, but am worried that I will go overboard with it. My DH has promised to let me know the moment I get carried away, but it is still a worry.
Also I'm thinking of delaying going back to college till the Spring semester. It has been such a stressor trying to get everything together, and worse since the college staff seems to be taking an extended vacation, I never can get a human on the phone. Plus, if I wait till then I will have been on the meds longer and maybe they will have figured out a combo that will work for me. As it is, with the meds I was taking, my depression got much worse. I don't think I would stick to it as I am right now. I still have to talk to my hubby about it, but I think he will agree. Besides, even if I wait one semester, I'll still get my degree at the same time. This year was to get me ready and used to going to college again.
But I can't help but wonder if I'm just procrastinating and coming up with exuses to delay it. I know these are valid reasons, but I'm awful at putting things off.
glad to see you posting again
was worried about you, given your last Sharepost
and yeah.. some meds actually do cause depression or cause depression to worsen
so, given what you typed here - I take it you got a med change
you've started with a new psychologist
you've started a new structured routine
you've started a new med change
and now you are contemplating starting college this coming semester
and yet you are concerned your, perhaps chilly feet, is just procrastination
let's see
you said yourself that waiting till next semester would give you time to see if the meds are working
and that if you were to start now, at college, you feel like you'd not keep it up
so
maybe you already answered your dilema?
either way you decide, wishing you luck and sending support
Thank you for the support and reinforcing what I was feeling. I usually push myself to hard, and I'm trying really hard not to do that now. But it also makes me feel like I'm not doing my best sometimes. I know in my head that I shouldn't overdo it and should not feel bad about it, but I feel like I'm not doing my best. I just have to realize that overloading my plate is not my best, it is bad for me!!
DH was somewhat supportive, somewhat not. I'm trying to get him to see that to much at once might not work out, as it hasn't in the past.