I don't know if I am doing this right and anyone will be able to read this. I was just diagnosed with Bipolar 2. It makes since when I look back on my life and how I would fall into deep depression where I did not care if I was dead or alive. I just did not care.

I just got fired from my job on 5/5/2010. I worked under a great management for about a year than I got promoted and now working with new management. It was hell from the third week I was there. I was terrified of this women. It's like it brought up some PTSD. I was already having some stress at home with trying to still hand onto our home, my husband went through a heart scare. I was the only one gainfully employeed with full insurance coverage.

My husband lot his business after 10 years and has been a struggle since in this recession. I won't go into full detail but I started to get very depressed at work. I felt I was treated badly. I always was afraid I would lose my job. It's a Forutne 500 company and its all about numbers. I feel they used scare tatics to try to make you produce. I aksed for help on numerous occasions and never got it. I finally had to apply for intermittent Fmla for stress, anxiety and a depression that lasted for months. I had thoughts of suicide. Anyways I was told to go to a phychiatrist by my therapist and was told I was Bipolar 2. I am on new medication and feeling a little better but so afriad to go back to that deep depression.

My pshyciatrist told me and also I have been doing some research that stress can bring on your Bipolar symptoms. My job was the icing on the cake. I could not handle anymore stress. Anyways I was fired for productivity. I am sure my numbers were not up to par as I was trying to get diagnosed but I was told by my friend , co-worker that no one has met their quota per her manager. We had different managers.

Two days before I was fired a co-worker told me our boss called her into her office and asked her if me or another employee who is also on FMLA told her about FMLA. That was an odd question. I think they used me as a scapegoat.

I had no problems working under the other management. Had good reviews. Does anyone have an opionion on what I can do? Or has been through this.

I filed a complaint with ECOC. Any other suggestions.

Thanks everyone,

Lynn