Has anyone ever felt an episode coming on? I don't know if this fits it but I have felt it for the past week more so for the past two days in the pit of my gut. I have become quiet and withdrawn from my family and not sleeping or eating. I just want to cry and be alone, I am fighting this with every fiber of my being to control it but it gets harder as the seconds tick by. This is very hard to talk about, my wife don't want to hear it anymore and she is about the only person I trust to talk to here. I don't know what to do at this point, I've tried to occupie myself but the feeling still dominates me. I feel rejected by my wife and at this point ready to go home to Va, I hate it there.I don't feel like I belong anywhere right now. Just want to give up and say the hell with it and go back on the road and go to work, forget the meds be who I was for the last year and a half and that is not the answer I know but I feel so alone right now and whats the use. All I can think is that I'm a reject and who wants me around. I'm so tired of battling this thing I just wish that I could have one day of a normal healty person, God could have the rest to do what he pleases with, Maybe cure a child that has cancer! I don't know anymore, love you guys!!!!!!!
