Hello everyone, it's been a while since I visited so here my updates: I have returned to work but have a fear of heights now and I am working through it or trying to, I'm feeling better but still have the shakes especially here lately the triliptal helps with it, the manic rears it's ugly head still but it's managable, the depression still is but does not dominate things. I think that a med change would help and I will bring it up to my doc thursday, I got to go 2 mos without seeing her (my doc) in november and december while I worked out of state which suprised me very much and was nice! I had to stay with a friend that I really trusted while I was out it was all good !!!!!! I didn't have the internet where I was at but still kept myself busy by painting the upstairs of his house, he was tickled with the job! I miss talking to you guys and gals, I hope someday to be able to help someone like you guys did me and will probably do again in the future, thanks to all of you especially one and they know who they are! Although I still hate this disease you my friends have inspired me to dust myself off and get up and start the journey of finding out who I was and who I am today. It's just who I am becoming in the future that worries me, the unknown but I keep walking the road and trying to hold my head high and realize the true friends that I have everywhere and the best one of all is my wife. I do love her dearly!!!!!! I TRUELY HOPE THAT THIS WILL INSPIRE AND HELP SOMEONE!!!