On and off I realize How intense and chronic my fear and anxiety are, how they are intertwined and how they are a part of my bipolar illness. It's such a relief to be at ease here and there but I'm finding my actions and reactions to myself and other people tend to be full of fearful thoughts and nervous feelings. Just thinking how often I cry and how quickly I change moods bothers me immensly. When my boyfriend critcizes me, {giving me feedback}ha! I get a deeprooted reaction and can cry, be angry, be verbally abusive, or all three. I feel like such a mixed up and confused person sometimes. Being chemically unbalanced can make you a wreck. Meds relieve some symptoms but they sure don't all go away. I wish I would,t cry so much. it seems like almost everyday, and they doesn't mean I'm always depressed. Well---On to my next challenge.  --- Joicie