Log rolling

I find my self log rolling today. That is what I call it when you can make it through to sanity or fall off into an episode of insanity. I am trying not to fall. I put a call in to my doctor, she hasn't called me back yet. Not to mention I am in Florida waiting on a grandchild to be born. SO I am not even in the same state as my doctor. I am in a pickle. I guess the thing that really hurt me today was a nightmare this afternoon. The ones that make you wake up in a silent scream crying. I just am beginning to feel a little lost. I have to breathe and know it will pass.