Saturday, May 24, 2008
I'm sure I'm not the first to ask the question, but when you're in the now--not looking back--how can you tell if it is you, your meds, or the disorder talking? I've started second guessing myself not knowing who is in control here. I'm in purgatory waiting for an antidepressant to take affect and when it does I should be more myself again, but then is that me or is that the drug? My husband says I haven't been myself for a few months, but I can't remember that person--I don't know what my goal is.
There have been times when my family says I'm not myself. This wasn't due to meds but life circumstances that caused this change. When the meds make you feel "normal", you are yourself again. You may be changed. People change as circumstances change. You don't have to really be who you were before to be well. Don't worry so much about finding yourself. Just concentrate on feeling "well".