Xmas Eve is the anniversary of my father's death. I dread it every year. I wish I didn't.
I'm all ready for xmas, but am dealing with grief. I hate the meds I am on, but Dr. insists that they will 'eventually' do some good for me.
Am also in physical pain with a bad back - need a disk replacement at L5/S1.
HOw can I... Read more
Winter is almost here. Sure feels like it here in Seattle.
My question is this: Are many woman with BPD abused by their non-BP partners? Are the statistics of abuse higher for BPD women, than women without mental illness?
I know that long term abuse leads to mental illness, and I was abused by my ex-husband for 11 years.... Read more
This is a flower in my garden last summer.... oh, how I miss summer...
I feel like I did before I got diagnosed with BPD; depressed, nervous, can't seem to "get over" my thoughts, envy people brave enough to try suicide - I never would because of my kids and husband and my mom...but sometimes I wish I could, I feel... Read more
Yesterday I went to the funeral of a friend. All of us that went were experiencing some anniversary grief, based on our own previous losses. Some people were hurting more than others, and some drank WAYYYYY too much. A woman who I have concidered a friend was very nasty to me toward the end of the evening and accused me of sleeping with her... Read more
This was an up and down day. Went to my back Dr., for my herniated disk, thinking we were going to schedule surgery, but no. He's got a bad bedside manner and forgets our previous conversations about how I have to have the surgery before the end of the year, or I won't be able to afford it (because of insurance). I left crying. He even has to MAIL... Read more