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This was an up and down day. Went to my back Dr., for my herniated disk, thinking we were going to schedule surgery, but no. He's got a bad bedside manner and forgets our previous conversations about how I have to have the surgery before the end of the year, or I won't be able to afford it (because of insurance). I left crying. He even has to MAIL me my disabled parking form (for a disabled parking placard), instead of taking a minute and filling it out right when I was there, so I could have it as soon as possible. Now I don't know when I am having surgery, which screws everything up for me. I insisted to the office staff to schedule an appt. in one month, instead of two, like the Dr. wanted. At that appt. I'm taking my husband and we are going to insist that we get that surgery scheduled. I'm so sick of Dr.'s.
Also, I've been wanting to get off Abilify because of the fatigue problem, and my regular Dr. insisted that I first try taking 1/2 doses. Does any Dr. listen to me? I am really trying to speak up for myself, but it is not working. It makes me feel so weak to have no one taking me seriously. My back Dr. is going to be in for it the next time I see him, I am so angry. I just want to cry.
I am so tired of being in pain from my herniated disk, I just want to take about 10 pain pills so I can have at least a little bit of time without pain.
I was upset and lonely after the disappointing back Dr. appt. and had to go to the bar to find an ear to bend about how upset I was. I had one drink and came home. At least someone was willing to listen to me, and that helped.
It's been kind of a crappy day.
Sewing helps to keep my mind busy, so I decide to work on my sewing project (I'm making vintage style aprons from 1950's Vogue patterns). I'm sewing along thinking, "I've finally found something that I enjoy and I am good at it," when I discover that I've sewn the pieces to the wrong sides of the fabric. Ugh! And I'd felt so proud of myself for sewing so well... I don't have the heart to keep on sewing tonight. I'll have to pick it back up tomorrow.
Somedays, are harder than others. Tomorrow I am sleeping in as long as I want.
aww that just sucks, i hate crummy doctors too like seriously they never listen or they think our advise means nothing. Its hard to find a doctor that listens or is open for suggestions but they are out their, i found one and my Docotor will take any suggestion because he knows i do alot of research, iv drilled it in his brain, tell your doctor you do tons of research on BP and the meds used, let him know your full of info about this disorder and the treatment for it. Let him know your on tons of forums and chat forms. He should then not question you as much and maybe take your advise like trying geodon, effexr,aderol,or something. So, give it a couple days on a half dose then call his office again, and when you call and they ask why you want to see him for a another visit, tell them to change meds, he will get the message, keep bugging him relentlessly. Same with the back doctor make a late night emergency call to him lie to him that your messed up bad and you cant take the pain, lie if you have too.
Thanks for the advice! I LOVE the late night phone call idea! Bwahahahaha.... Believe me, my back doc deserves it! He has a crappy bedside manner and goes back on his word.
My regular doc is really a great guy, when it comes down to it. I will try 1/2 doses and if they don't work he will put me on something else. He knows that I am smart and that I do my research, unlike my back doc, who thinks the sun rises and sets on his 'smart' ass.
Thanks again for your kind words.