Husband is on his rampage again

(About burning the papers last year. I had two piles of papers, one to burn and one to file. I got them mixed up in my hazy, crazy mind and burned the wrong papers. I can't even remember why I did that, or what happned in my mind to make such a bad mistake. My husband got home and saved most of the papers, he found me in bed passed out and could hardly wake me up. I was almost overdosing. It was probably my worst episode and it was before I was diagnosed as BP).

I know he is frustrated with my health problems but this is no way to handle it - to dump on me and let me sit here all day stewing in it. I was depressed before and now I feel worse. I'm so upset about being denied again for SSD. How long must I wait to get a break in this life?

I feel like I can't share anything with my husband anymore because he always throws it up in my face.

Thanks for letting me vent.