First and foremost I want to say hi to all of my friends that I have come to know on this site. Shelly you have a very special place in my heart! I have never meant you, but I feel like we have been in each others lives forever. That is a good thing. Purple Flamingo, you make me smile. I love your attitude. I look forward to your comments. Tabby and Alex you are special also. I know that I am forgetting someone and I don't mean to. Those are just the people that I thought of off of my head. Thank you to all of you!
In the last three months, I have had a very difficult time. My depression was soooo consuming. It took everything I could just to function. This past episode that I went through was the worst since when it first started over six years ago. I was extremely scared that I was back at square one.
My doctor put me on abilify to start out. It made my heart race and couldn't breathe. I have a pacemaker/defibulator. That medicine is NEVER going to be a medicine I will take. Next, we tried seroquel xr. It made me feel like my arms and legs were paralyzed. I couldn't function. It even affected my breathing. Not good either. The heart situation and I also have asthma. I then get put on this lithium. It is a no go. I took it. Not to long later, I felt like my throat was closing and I was severely vomitting. I even considered going to the hospital it was that bad. That leads me to now. (You guys are probably saying, "finallly!" lol) I am going to talk to my doctor and ask for her to refer me to a therapist for intensive therapy instead of trying to go through all this medicine. I am going to start taking vitamins because she said they will help also.
I am feeling better. I finally fell like I can see a little bit of day light. She ask me if this was like the feeling I felt when I experienced hypomania in December. It isn't. I don't feel the over the top happiness. I feel focused, but yet calm. I don't feel invincible like I did with the hypomania in December. I still don't want to be around people alot, but I try to get out more. I just know my limitations.
I am going to be ok and so are the rest of you! We will fall backwards, and we might take a little while to get back up. We will get back up though.
Take care of yourselves! Lori
God got me to this point first and foremost!
first...
thank you for mentioning us. we are happy to be of help to you!
second...
ooooh. i visited my doc yesterday. the verdict; lithium was the last chance. the prescription is at the store waiting for me as i speak. i was reeeeaaallly unsure of what to do. doc pretty much left it up to me. "a last ditch try, and if this doesn't work for you, there is nothing left i have..."
i came home from my appointment, told my family 'the plan' and watched everyone flip. lots of flippin' with that bunch. glad everyone wants to pitch in their two cents; of course, it would have been helpful to have someone with me when the time came for a decision. and seeing as i only had a few minutes to tell the doc yay or nay, what could i do?
thanks for the warning... maybe i'll keep that lithium script right where it is.
Hi how are you doing? I don't know what how your body will react to the lithium. We all differ so much in the way our bodies react to certain medicines. You have to do what is best for you.
You know what you need to do. It will all work out!
Take care, Lori