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34 year old female professional single mother....
Anhedonia, Catatonic, Agitation, Irritable
Alone in pain and...
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Friday, August 14, 2009
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I am crippled by lonliness....after my daughter went to live with her father bc I was lets just say very "close to god" (I chose to starve myself...I guess even then I wanted to torture myself or more than likely wait for someone to save me..Borderline traits i know).....had maybe a week left..maybe....
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I empathize
InsaneGenius
Tuesday, August 18, 2009 at 04:35 PM
I lost custody of my daughter eight years ago during one of my manic periods. Each day I grieve the loss of her in my life. Even though she only lives 1.8 miles away, it may as well be the moon. She calls my ex's wife, "Mom". That sits really hard with me even though Susan has been the mom to Danielle that I always wanted to be. Even though I have had long term stability, Danielle chooses to continue to live with her father.
My other daughter, Mary, I didn't get to raise either. She is on her own now, living 1200 miles away and is busy with her own life.
Its hard not to feel lonely and forgotten, exiled to the land of bipolar madness. But there are many ways that I have been able to find a way to contribute to humanity and socialize myself as well. Right now I am tutoring in algebra. In the past, I have been a recovery coach for other bipolar individuals and mentoring children. In my humble opinion, we are only as alone as we want to be.
Peace be with you.
I lost custody of my daughter eight years ago during one of my manic periods. Each day I grieve the loss of her in my life. Even though she only lives 1.8 miles away, it may as well be the moon. She calls my ex's wife, "Mom". That sits really hard with me even though Susan has been the mom to Danielle that I always wanted to be. Even though I have had long term stability, Danielle chooses to continue to live with her father.
My other daughter, Mary, I didn't get to raise either. She is on her own now, living 1200 miles away and is busy with her own life.
Its hard not to feel lonely and forgotten, exiled to the land of bipolar madness. But there are many ways that I have been able to find a way to contribute to humanity and socialize myself as well. Right now I am tutoring in algebra. In the past, I have been a recovery coach for other bipolar individuals and mentoring children. In my humble opinion, we are only as alone as we want to be.
Peace be with you.