I have been with my husband now for 5 years but in all 12 years. We have a 7 year old daughter and I have watched him struggle with his illness since he was 17 or 18. He is now under a doctors care for medication and therapy and we both attend couples therapy as well. However, he has finally said that he wants to seperate. He has said this and actually we have been seperated before but never like this. I have now watched him tear his family apart, and tell his little girl he will be moving out. I sometimes have so much of all different types of emotions inside and have a hard time containing them. I am afraid to lose him and fear this time I will actually lose him. I want my marriage and I know what the hard work entails but he can't see through the storm of this illness. My heart tells me to hang on for dear life and he will be back but my head says to let him go. Which one is it??? I guess I have no choice as I can not keep a man that doesn't want to be kept in a marriage...but more so a man with bipolar.
Confused and lost
Jessica
