All that Remains

Something I wrote a few years back (with a few modifications)... I was in a really dark place then.

Why was I denied?
Denied a fathers love...
Because
He just didn't want me

Why was I stripped?
Stripped of my mothers love...
Because
She BEAT it out of me

Robbed of friendship
Because my peers...
Ignored me

And the trust I gave
To the woman I loved
My trust...
Taken advantage of

All of it...
Denied to me

All of it...
Gone

GONE

Till all
That remains...

Is HATE

An unforgiving hate...
For everyone that hurt me

A deep, unrepentant hate...
For EVERYTHING!

This Hate

Fueled by my very soul

Hate...
Consuming
Me
Whole

This Hate will not subside

And my Hate will not
Be
DENIED!

Hate...
Born out of grief

For the things I was denied

For the things I wanted

For the things I DESERVED!

And all I wanted

All I...

I...

I just wanted my father...
To acknowledge me

I just wanted my mother...
To accept me

I wanted my peers to welcome me

And I just
Wanted
The woman I loved...
To believe - In me

I do not want to be angry anymore

I do not want to Hate...
ANY
MORE

I just want what YOU have

I just want
To
Be
LOVED!

But now...

NOW

All that remains...

Is HATE!