monalisa

I am separated from my husband once again. I fell apart once again over the infidelity's, lies, and erratic and irresponsible behavior. Excuses, blame, denial, addrienline junky.

I just got out of a mental treatment center. I start drinking to much over the pain of it all, and was diaognoised with borderline personality disorder. Falling apart over trying to help my sick husband, and stabbed over and over, being a wonderful wife, adoring, cooking, responsible, understanding, intimatcy was good, and the rollercoaster ride begins again. He promise to be the hero while I was gone, and a week into my treatment he cheated, and now that I'm home, and moved him out, he hangs with the losers and the tramps to fill the void that can never be filled. He refuses help at all costs, loving the mania side, with the sexual addiction excuse. I am just waiting at home, lonely but determinded not to work things out unless he gets the help he needs. What a sad and lonely, life to live, never knowing from day to day, who you will wake up to.