My sister passed away at 27 from an accidental drug overdose. She suffered from Bi-Polar disorder and I found a journal of hers. I am going to post a page from her journal every week until it is finished. I am doing this to get her thoughts out b/c maybe they will help others. She also wrote some poems that are very deep as well.
Post #1
Addiction
HELP!
I Can't Breathe!
Help!
Hands are wrapping around my neck and they're getting tighter and tighter.
I need it.
The water gets deeper
as my knees get weaker.
There is so much smoke in the room.
I can't find air.
I need it!
I'm in a closed coffin.
Sealed in my sins.
Buried alive without a way to dig myself out.
But I put myself here.
What kills me it what thrills me.
Addiction makes me complete.
Completely miserable.
Accept my condolences for your sister's death. So young she was, God bless her and keep her in a better place.
This must be so hard on you dear Dawn, I hope it will bring some peace to your heart and help ease the pain of such loss.
The poems are very deep and very beautiful; we can see her pain clearly. She must have been very special; you are blessed for having such a sister.
Thank you for sharing that blessing with us all,
Alex
she was very special and i loved her so much. i knew that she suffered from depression/bipolar but did not really understand her pain. it saddens me to think i couldnt do anything about it but i know i was always there for her and loved her very much. she used to cry to me b/c she didnt sleep for days from anxiety and depression and since her death i just say to myself that my baby sister gets to finally sleep and be at peace and sometimes it makes me feel better.