Stop the Merry-Go-Round

This is my first time here.  I have been in treatment for a little over 11 years and for the most part have at times been able to achieve some type of balance but this last year has not been easy.  I can't get any steady footing and I have no idea why.  I don't have increased stresses at work or at home so why can't I get my balance back?  Outside therapy I have a couple of people I share with and it helps to deflate the intensity but I get frustrated that I can't express clearly what's going on in my head.  No one truly gets it.  My biggest trouble is finances, always has been, and I have put myself in a bad situation again.  I tend to stay to myself so this is a new experience for me to open up to anyone who might be listening.  Anyway I just needed to ramble a bit given I am once again alone in the house with no one to talk to at the moment.  Thanks again for your time.