I hate the unknown! I have done everything I can think of to help my case on Monday. I have been trying to stay level headed, but it is so hard. My baby is my life I have done everything for him since he was born. I don't want them to decide I have to stay in NC because I need to be around MY family and my son would be better in this area because there are better schools and more opportunities. Plus many aunts/uncles/cousins to be around. I hope the judge sees it this way. Pray, cross your fingers, or whatever you think will help me please.
I need to stay focused and strong.
Shandy

my heart reaches out to you and if i could i would give you all the strength i have in me to get you through the very scary unknown. Don't worry Shandy I'm sure it will all work itself out to benefit you and that darling angel of yours in the end.

Do you have someone from your family who can come with you to court and tell the judge that you will be living with them? You have to have a "backup" plan in case something happens again. You need someone with you until your medication is right and have to have a back up plan in place just in case you need to be hospitalized again. If you had a suicide attempt before they may worry about what will happen to the baby if you get that low again.
I'm sure you will have to be stable for a certain amount of time before they will feel you can care for your baby. I know it's not fair. I know it really stinks. You may actually have to live with just visitation for a short amount of time unless you can somehow prove to the judge that you can provide a stable home for him.
Good luck and I hope it all works out for you.