Another step today

Today I was able to actually get a little work done, but still feel weighted.  Its very tiring this whole living thing.  I am pretty determined to keep doing it though.  The cat had to remind me that I had neglected her.  I did focus a little and I managed to avoid the evil nap, but I didn't get the car into the shop and didn't go grocery shopping and now here I am whining. 

It is strange to be both aware and unaware at the same time of how bad a state things in your head are getting.  But unlike the last few weeks, I actually was aware sooner of the world around me.  I was aware that day was getting away from me.  The fact that I am writing this says that I am climbing outta the well.  The fact that my neglected garden saw me today says something good.  I attended a wedding over the weekend that it was strength of will and my better half's encouragement that got me through.

I will try to keep posting...  I will try to keep climbing out... I am still here if you need me!