Today I was able to actually get a little work done, but still feel weighted. Its very tiring this whole living thing. I am pretty determined to keep doing it though. The cat had to remind me that I had neglected her. I did focus a little and I managed to avoid the evil nap, but I didn't get the car into the shop and didn't go grocery shopping and now here I am whining.
It is strange to be both aware and unaware at the same time of how bad a state things in your head are getting. But unlike the last few weeks, I actually was aware sooner of the world around me. I was aware that day was getting away from me. The fact that I am writing this says that I am climbing outta the well. The fact that my neglected garden saw me today says something good. I attended a wedding over the weekend that it was strength of will and my better half's encouragement that got me through.
I will try to keep posting... I will try to keep climbing out... I am still here if you need me!
I used to deal with that evening zombie mode, i couldnt keep my eyes open if i tried it was terrible, it would come right at 3hrs after taking my meds, i would fall asleep at work at my desk on the phone even, i dealt with it for about 2 months then came to the conclusion, " theirs no way i can go on tired like this " and told my Doctor, he said ok instead of taking the meds when i wake up, i take them when i go to sleep, when i wake up i dont feel drugged up and it stays with me all day i do double the dose, i can feel the meds starting to ware off late in the evening a perfect time too, maybe you can come to some type of solution like that.
being tired when meds kick in could cause you all kinds of problems trying to function & think rite durring the day.