Holidays

I too am overwhelmed by a lot of people.  Find a quiet corner and just talk to someone.  Don't feel bad or feel like you have to be your mother.  Everyone is different.

Being nervous around a bunch of people is a difficulty many people have.  If you're overwhelmed, don't push yourself.  It's possible the noise is bothering you or the feeling of people being too close.

Be kind to yourself and get through the best you can, they'll be over soon.

I understand!!  Only the only family I really have left is my in laws.  Kinda different, but true.  I don't speak to my mother for many reasons.  Mostly because of things I would be in jail for today if I ever found it happened to my children.  Other reasons are because, I know she has bipolar and she's too good to admit it.  I am blessed with a forgiving and loving family of in laws.  If I were an in law to myself, I would probably tell me to go to Hell.  Luckily, they research and understand.  They are great like that.  that's why I am still lucky to have my adorable husband.

                     Just know I feel the same!  Even  with the forgiveness, love, and support, I still kinda feel like an outcast.  I kinda unfortunatly got out of hours of Thanksgiving chat due to an unfortunate clumpsy episode of mine.  I fell down a flight of 25-30 concrete steps!!!  Head first might I add.  yeah!!!!  Didn't feel good and didn't make our Thanksgiving last more than 2 hrs.  I really don't recommend it, but since just being diagnosed, it got me out of small chit chat I was very much so trying to avoid.  Bad but honest!!!!

                              So I am sure Christmas will be the same.  Me trying to hide in a bathroom stall or me trying to find a hole to bury myself in.  I love my neices and nephews, but the adults are the problem.  If you haven't read my Journey, you won't connect!!1 I did this when all my in laws were in attendance.  Talk about making a show. I did great.  Be confident!!!!  Be positive!!!!  God made you the way you are because he knew you could handle it.  Be yourself and do your best.  You can do it!!!1 I have faith and trust in you.  Good luck and Keep in touch!!!!