Heart Wounds

Everyone wants to be acknowledged and everyone wants to be validated.  It is very important for we human beings.

However, and please know that I know what you are feeling cause I do, you can not humanely be loved by everyone.  You also can not make everyone happy no matter how hard you try.

The important thing is how you feel about yourself and whether you love and care about you.  I am still struggling to learn this fact but it is something I have to be able to do. 

You aren't worthless.  If others just don't want your company then they weren't worth your effort to befriend them.  Still, don't stop trying to befriend someone.  There are folks out there who are just as lonely as you feel and they, like yourself, are not worthless.

Try a support group, therapy, and/or a church group.  There are lots of people to love you and give you the validation you need.  You should also make a "date" with your husband at least once a month.  I think he can spare some time for you.

Take care and stop spending so much time with your cats.  I know they love you but you need human contact my friend.

Rose? Not everybody likes everybody else! ... You don't like some certain people sometimes ... Some certain people sometimes do not like me or you ... A lot a times, so much of the time, it seems, I do not get the attention nor the love that I need ... Sometimes, well .. A whole lot of very much of the time, other people are in turmoil and just don't have the time and just don't want to be bothered and just can't be bothered because there are things pressing on their minds and weighing them down and they might say, NO, NO, just don't burst my bubble, NOT YET, just don't burst my bubble right now. I think a lot of times everybody will go through something like this. You have to realize that sometimes others can't be there for you, they have too too much already, and sometimes you can't be there for them, so, if so, why does the pot call the kettle black, and, if so, mirror mirror, I mirror you you mirror me I see me in dealing with you and you see you in dealing with me and with others, so in these circumstances, it is alright to be indifferent at times to others rejections and needs, and they to yours, because it's true, it is a dog eat dog, survival of the fittest society and if people and you do not look out for number one first, if you don't take care of your own needs first, then other people and you are not alright because you don't take care of yourself first, so if you don't take care of yourself first it's impossible for you to be effective in taking care of and caring for another. People don't hate you. They hate being bothered and overcome when they need time to regroup themselves. You are like this too. You have to be. It's quite normal. You can't give of yourself to the point of destroying yourself and neither can anyone else. Mirror Mirror. What you perceive about others is only your own reflection. This is a truth. Created in his image, mirroring HYMN to know HYMN and to know ourselves, mirroring each other to know ourselves and others better. Think you can follow this? You must find things to do. You must be diligent in the things you find to do and focused on them and on life. For living is doing. If you do not believe me try to stay perfectly still, eyes closed, try not to hear anything, don't even breathe? You can't for very long at all. Only several seconds! Then you must do something. Something at least! Only because you're alive. Living is doing as I said. Do things, more things, things you like and things you dislike. Do them methodically, diligently and while focused on what you're doing and the things surrounding you while you're focused on your one task at a time. You'll see. It helps greatly.

OldDoggy