paranoid thinking

I'm tired of having to second guess everything out of my paranoid thinking.  I think I'm fine and then something comes along and I freak, thinking, "Does this person hate me?  What did I do?  Have I been shunned to the outside?"  It can be very disturbing to me.  I need to have a social network, but negative thoughts intrude.  It cuts down on my self confidence.  I become sad, worried, and frightened.  I feel pathetic for letting it take control like it does, but if I was free of the paranoia that is a part of this illness, I wouldn't have these problems.  It's disturbing.  I wonder if anyone else gets these symptoms.