I'm tired of having to second guess everything out of my paranoid thinking. I think I'm fine and then something comes along and I freak, thinking, "Does this person hate me? What did I do? Have I been shunned to the outside?" It can be very disturbing to me. I need to have a social network, but negative thoughts intrude. It cuts down on my self confidence. I become sad, worried, and frightened. I feel pathetic for letting it take control like it does, but if I was free of the paranoia that is a part of this illness, I wouldn't have these problems. It's disturbing. I wonder if anyone else gets these symptoms.