by
Rose
Thursday, March 27 2008
I thought that once you had gotten past a certain point, you would no longer have any of the symptoms of your particular mental illness. I guess I'm wrong. This very night, I spiraled down into a pit of despair, but was revived by my husband's insistence that there were a lot of things to be happy for. Yes, it hits... Read more
by
Rose
Saturday, March 22 2008
I am having difficulties going to sleep. Yet, considering my past, I'm doing okay. I don't want to go too high or dip too low. I am either happy as a clam, or having low self esteem. I have panic attacks where it's difficult to speak. At its worst, I am completely delusional that... Read more
by
Rose
Tuesday, March 18 2008
I'm trying to keep up with my doctor's instructions, but sometimes I worry that I have ruined something. I tread lightly so as not to waken the beast. At the same time, a renewed creativity has opened doors for me that I thought were lost. The artistic life was layered with... Read more
by
Rose
Sunday, March 16 2008
I have a husband who treats me well and is very supportive. Sometimes I feel I've let him down, and he could have found someone else. It has been rough with my family. They could not accept that I wasn't acting it out. Every second of every day was agony. Really, I don't know how I... Read more